Baby Blues

You told me you loved me and I believed you
everything about our situation felt true
we were so comfortable with each other
everything just fit... it felt right
remember that conversation we had about last night?

"baby I came in you last night.. what happens if you get pregnant?"
"If I get pregnant then WE'RE having a baby, what are you gonna do?
you laughed and said "run" then lean over and embraced me and said "naw baby I'll right here for you" and I believed you.
the time passed and we continued to make love freely
always ending with your essence flowing inside me ..no worries  but is funny how things change when it gets real..
"babe im a couple weeks late I took a test but made an appt to see the Dr. and I want you to come with me"  I didn't expect you to call me a liar... what?!! so I want to the Dr. alone then came to tell you in person that we are in fact pregnant, and you turn into someone else. " I don't believe you, you're not pregnant I don't want to do this anymore it over between us" wow!
I invited you to the Dr. visits to see for your self but you never did show. I guess the doctor would tell you the same lie huh? six week in I told you that I'm high risk and you said just get rid of it you still have time. Is this who you really are? Did you take off the mask? or does the responsibility of having another child scare you? don't worry I wont ask you for anything or put you on child support if that's what you're worried about.
It's crazy how things always seem to work themselves out. I went to see my Dr today because of pain and light spotting  to find out that my BP is way high and my HCG is dropping and it shouldn't be. I heard the heartbeat today but it was faint. she put me on bed rest and because im only 10 weeks there's not too much else to do but try to relax and wait it out.

I don't know what will happen next
but  do know that everything happens for  reason
you could have kept all that hateful talk to yourself
you may have blocked your own blessings
by cursing the part of you that grows in me
at the end of the day what is to be will be.