Countless sleepless nights

Restless nights thinking about that one thing that's plagued my mind for the past 2 years.
I wish it meant something this feeling
Just a little bit of hope
One tiny glimpse
Something I could hold on to.

Wish I could hold you.

A true test of your feelings is not who you think of at 2am when your lonely but in your busiest day.
The one where you have so much shit on your mind but like a child who always has room for cake.
I always have room for you in my mind.
Safe.
Loved.
I wish I could show you.

I have no chance with you....