How many times...

how many times will I cry,
in just a days time,
how many feelings will I push aside,
till the day I die,
the feeling of,
love,
hurt,
fear,
pain,
how much can I take,
before I finally break,
what will u do for me,
once u finally come to,
how many times do I have to talk about the rape,
the way he grabbed me,
the way I screamed and cried,
the way my mother let it happen,
how broken I was after it,
how broken I am now,
how many times will I have nightmares,
will this pain ever stop,
will it even go away,
will I ever be ok,