Pretty

Time is going by pretty fast
Lately I've been having flashbacks of the past

my body so sore
My heart and mind so numb

I guess I'm feeling pretty lonely

I've changed and I feel they don't see me
My soul and body feel no more as one

The monster that I am conceiving
It needs time to grow

So I'm still myself
Though almost somebody else

When I cry I'm holding it all in
I dry my face to hide the shame
I hide when I can't keep control
Times when I'm not so pretty myself

I guess I'm feeling pretty down

Emotion feels like such a heavy burden
I cannot feel, I cannot understand

People get so distracted
Or maybe I'm the distracted one

Guess I've kept myself kind of doped up
Blindness, occupied by my own thoughts

Selfish in a quiet sort of way
Yet I feel I'm just observing

I guess I'm feeling pretty lost

Today I gave myself this moment
I usually don't finish my own thoughts

Seems like people are schools of fish
I wonder if I'm the trap or the lure

Or maybe I'm the ocean, maybe nothing
Maybe something in between

Of course maybe I'm not so alone
I could even be some statistic

Life to me never was a game
Always an effort to be happy

I know I'm still pretty young
A lot to learn, a lot to get done

The days have been okay
Though sometimes I feel it needs to end

I know I can handle some shit
But inside I'm feel like I'm just caving in

Today I held my caramel woman
She was so warm in my arms
Then I realized this wasn't just my moment
I realized the moment was ours

I guess I'm just going with the flow
Today this is all I know
Someday I'll look back and I'll know the answer

Guess life has taught me to be pretty optimistic
Or curiousity is what drives me these days
Even when I'm afraid see what's next
I know things will change

There will be pretty okay days






(Never wrote a song before, so I apologize if it's confusing or something..)