Sobriety

Moderation in or abstinence from liquor or other drugs
the day fades away into a terror filled night of loneliness and painful memories. Oh how I dread these nights alone I sit lost inside my head so I eat some zanex to put my mind to rest, and
when dawn breaks as always I finde my self alone and depressed but these valume I found should do the trick.
As to ease the pain of body and minde a hand full of morphene will do just fine untill the high is gone leaving me just alone as before sick and numb.
So this word sobriety has little meaning its a distasteful word all in its self because either way there is no help. so leave me be to this psychotic thing with in let it consume my mind and let become my friend.
These drugs I do and the liquor I drink are all just things to get away, away from day to day life painful memories and the beast inside.