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ophelia?

AN: This is very old. really old feelings that i found in an old google doc. they are no longer relevant or true. i just liked the words and expression.
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oh my god
oh my god im so in love with her
oh my god

her hands
the feel of her hands
the cold skin of her hands
the skinny fingers that SO LUSTFULLY AND LONGINGLY ENCASE MINE, YET ONLY TEMPORARILY AS IF ITS FORBIDDEN OR SOMETHING, AND IN MY MIND, I DON’T WANT TO BE, BUT MY SOCIAL BOUNDARIES LOCK ME INTO HORRIBLE CONFINEMENTS.
THEY REACH OUT TO FIND MINE AND ITS NOT LIKE WE FUNCTION TOGETHER OR LIKE I’M INCAPABLE OF WORKING WHEN YOU ARENT HERE BUT INSTEAD THAT I AM SO INFATUATED WITH YOUR EVERY MOVE AND YOU ARE SO IMPORTANT TO ME AND I LOVE YOU

and the words came out of her lips, the lips that i dream every single night of kissing, and the words roll almost easily off of them and i almost don’t notice it but then i realize the importance of the breakthrough she just made and my spirits soar higher than -------- higher than the highest. i feel so paranoid
paranoid
paranoid
paranoid about every last thought she has in which i have even a scrape of importance in and how did it go from that, this burning passion behind a strangers face to an actual blossom of something and how am i this lucky, how am i this goddamned lucky, how am i so lucky that every reason i had to die was twirled around in a whirlwind of strange happenings that turned them all into reasons to live

every single action i form RAKES MY MIND 300 TIMES OVER AND I SUFFER ATTACK AFTER ATTACK OF INTENSE EMOTION BUT IT ALL RESULTS IN A MEMORY that is calm, one that doesn’t remain in infamy yet but soon will if i choose to dwell on it for long.

I IMAGINE THE SMALL CURVES OF YOUR WAIST AND HOW THEY WILL FEEL WITHIN MY HANDS. A QUICK GRAB AND PULL INTO THE SECRETIVE CHAMBER THAT IS MY MIND, EMBODIED BY THE GIRLS BATHROOM. I WILL WAIT FOR SUCH MOMENT AND THERE WILL BE HELL TO PAY FOR ANYONE THAT TRIES TO GET IN MY WAY.
I WILL NOT CARE WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT AUTHORITY YOU REPRESENT. THIS WILL BE MY LAST CHANCE AND I AM WILLING TO SEIZE IT AND RIP IT APART. YOU WONT CHANGE THAT FOR ME. HE WILL WISH THAT I HADNT AND IT WILL HURT HIM THAT I HAD BUT THIS FEELING OVERPOWERS ALL OF THEM AND I AM TRULY SORRY THAT I WILL BUT UNFORTUNATELY EVEN YOU DO NOT HAVE THE INCENTIVE TO CHANGE MY MIND.

NO ONE CAN STOP THIS FINAL MOMENT. THE MOMENT WHERE EVERY. LAST. DREAM. WILL CRASH INTO REALITY AT LIGHTNING SPEED.  

the taste of your lips will remain on mine for as long as i will be able to remember it. for people and people to come i don’t object that you will really be the person on my mind. maybe you could say the same. maybe the other people don’t mean as much to you as i do. maybe you really like me. maybe you wish i would say it. maybe i do too.

youre so much shorter than me. eight inches shorter. hugging you is almost like hugging my cousin.

hugging you is hard because you are small.

to answer your question:

i dont mind it.
i dont mind the height difference.
it wont bother me forever.
forever.
forever.
forever.
forever.
forever.
forever.
because--------

i really have strong feelings
for you.
i love you.
Written by morphineLace (julia sucks)
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