Songs Of Pain

My desires are never satisfied
No matter how hard I try
Like a force dwells high above
Waiting to see me cry

Ease has never been for me
To put it in simple terms
It's like I was made for unrest
To wrestle with ups and downs

I've seen many wild in elation
When their wishes are met
But for me watching is all I can do
With this tortured mindset

Trying to hide my worries behind phony smiles
But the pain is crystal clear
It's hard to move any further
When for tomorrow I fear

I look for consoling words in what is uttered
But all I hear is prejudice
So I have to drink down this poison I'm offered
Served to me as justice

But I simply can't live forever in illusions
Something in me rebels
And my mission is plain and simple
I crave for higher levels

One failed attempt welcomes the other
I'm a serial mess
I'm nervous,worried and bothered
Plus completely stressed

Looking up to the sky in expectation
Maybe heaven will shower on me
The reality of miracles I once believed in
Is now prodded by harsher realities

Thus I'm caught up in this existence
Like the grasses in the field
Abused and trampled on at will
And nothing for me to shield


Who can tell what I see
Whenever I look in the mirror
Behind me a cold careless world
Who cares if I shiver in terror

Now can you blame anybody
We all have burdens to bear
We are all victims of the same fate
Programmed to stress,wear and tear

Fragile even to the wind
I'm weary I can't pretend
Tired of singing this songs of pain
Is there a close for me my friend