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A note to myself
Sometimes as I stare into my past I feel as if time hasn't taken me through enough
I feel as if I have been asleep the whole time and just now in my life like I just woke from a dream that I have no idea what has happened.
And oddly everyone has moved on and I was somehow stuck on a sheet of ice frozen little statue all alone in Greenland
Nothing but icebergs around as company.
I don't feel complete. I have been on this earth long enough to know I don't want to die feeling this way but can't help but feel at times the end is closer than I would like to think.
Why do I feel this way? Will I continue to drag out this feeling of being distraught ?
I have heard that feeling this way is only temporary. That these predicaments we experience are only for a limited amount of time. That nothing last forever. A lot of the time when I look back seems like my memories have seemed to have an everlasting lock into my present life. Time has pressed on, but what I have lost has halted me.
Will I get back on my feet? Should I go to a medium and ask these things ?
I fiend to belong....To find a place. Where things that are positive keep me obsessed instead I stay in an endless well darkened pits
If your standing near me , extend your hand I need a grip
We all fall right?
That is what has been said numerous times
Even when the lights are off we can find a way ...
Holding tight of this theory
Holding tight of this theory
Looking at Buddhist blogs to keep the faith
saving images of positive messages in my phone from facebook looking to restore inspiration
Forever lost in what is missing
But forever is what you make it and if so I seek to dwell in the happy and the now because it seems only this is garunteed
I feel as if I have been asleep the whole time and just now in my life like I just woke from a dream that I have no idea what has happened.
And oddly everyone has moved on and I was somehow stuck on a sheet of ice frozen little statue all alone in Greenland
Nothing but icebergs around as company.
I don't feel complete. I have been on this earth long enough to know I don't want to die feeling this way but can't help but feel at times the end is closer than I would like to think.
Why do I feel this way? Will I continue to drag out this feeling of being distraught ?
I have heard that feeling this way is only temporary. That these predicaments we experience are only for a limited amount of time. That nothing last forever. A lot of the time when I look back seems like my memories have seemed to have an everlasting lock into my present life. Time has pressed on, but what I have lost has halted me.
Will I get back on my feet? Should I go to a medium and ask these things ?
I fiend to belong....To find a place. Where things that are positive keep me obsessed instead I stay in an endless well darkened pits
If your standing near me , extend your hand I need a grip
We all fall right?
That is what has been said numerous times
Even when the lights are off we can find a way ...
Holding tight of this theory
Holding tight of this theory
Looking at Buddhist blogs to keep the faith
saving images of positive messages in my phone from facebook looking to restore inspiration
Forever lost in what is missing
But forever is what you make it and if so I seek to dwell in the happy and the now because it seems only this is garunteed
Published 27th Jun 2014
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28th Jun 2014 9:27am
MMMhhh,i feel you,i feel that ink,but i will not consent to it!
Yes,it is normal to feel lost most times,feel like you don't belong,or as if your life is passing you by,but you only stop to feel that way when you find a home in yourself,when you accept yourself and belong to yourself first.
There was a time i use to feel trapped in my own life everyday.I would shift from town to town to city,always searching,searching for what?I had no idea,i just felt like i do not belong wherever i was.Then one day i realized,it was not the town,it was not the city,it was not the job or the college,it was me lacking,it was my insides that were inadequate in my own sight,i realized no matter where I'll go,so long as i had no home in me,i had no peace inside,i will never belong.
So i changed me,and guess what,i bought this really comfy couch for my crib and more permanent furnishings because, finally,am at home with me.
So you my dear,you have all you need to feel complete,to be happy,to belong.Do a self audit of yourself,search that little OctoberB... deep inside of you,make peace with her,make peace with yourself and trust me,no matter where you go after that,no matter what you will be going through after that,no matter what you lose or gain,you will be at home.You will be happy.Happiness;no one else can give you that,only you will.
So get down to it,change what need to be changed and soon i hope i will read a powerful note to yourself!
Yes,it is normal to feel lost most times,feel like you don't belong,or as if your life is passing you by,but you only stop to feel that way when you find a home in yourself,when you accept yourself and belong to yourself first.
There was a time i use to feel trapped in my own life everyday.I would shift from town to town to city,always searching,searching for what?I had no idea,i just felt like i do not belong wherever i was.Then one day i realized,it was not the town,it was not the city,it was not the job or the college,it was me lacking,it was my insides that were inadequate in my own sight,i realized no matter where I'll go,so long as i had no home in me,i had no peace inside,i will never belong.
So i changed me,and guess what,i bought this really comfy couch for my crib and more permanent furnishings because, finally,am at home with me.
So you my dear,you have all you need to feel complete,to be happy,to belong.Do a self audit of yourself,search that little OctoberB... deep inside of you,make peace with her,make peace with yourself and trust me,no matter where you go after that,no matter what you will be going through after that,no matter what you lose or gain,you will be at home.You will be happy.Happiness;no one else can give you that,only you will.
So get down to it,change what need to be changed and soon i hope i will read a powerful note to yourself!
28th Jun 2014 10:12am
