Submissions by Fallenangelsweapon (Stitchless Wounds)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I once had so much angst when I started here. I have grown in many ways, my writing has changed, I write whatever comes to me. I'm much happier in life than I once was. I'm happy with who I am and what I do now.
Something I Will Never Be
I've seen all my friends photos..
I've looked at them all..
Each are gorgeous.. No flaw in my eyes..
Perfectly skinny, beautiful eyes,
Perfect makeup, wonderful hair
And beautiful skin..
Then I look at myself..
A whole list appears of
What I am...
I don't have a perfect body,
I don't have perfect makeup, wonderful
Hair, and most certainly, not
Flawless skin...
I am disgusted,
I hate myself, I hate my appearance..
I try to fix my hair and smile,
But then realize, it won't do..
I'm not beautiful...
I envy...
I've looked at them all..
Each are gorgeous.. No flaw in my eyes..
Perfectly skinny, beautiful eyes,
Perfect makeup, wonderful hair
And beautiful skin..
Then I look at myself..
A whole list appears of
What I am...
I don't have a perfect body,
I don't have perfect makeup, wonderful
Hair, and most certainly, not
Flawless skin...
I am disgusted,
I hate myself, I hate my appearance..
I try to fix my hair and smile,
But then realize, it won't do..
I'm not beautiful...
I envy...
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One Of These Days
You said I couldn't save you enough,
That I couldnt give you enough..
You left me without a voice and a soul..
Have you no shame, don't
You see me?
I was told to stop
Believing, I'm only
Decieving myself...
Your voice has
Chased away all sanity in me..
Can you even remember yourself?
I'm frozen inside
Without your love,
I feel so dead..
It's like living
A lie, there's
Just nothing inside,
I've tried so hard to
Tell myself that
You're gone..
But in the end I guess
I had to fall..
Anything is better than to...
That I couldnt give you enough..
You left me without a voice and a soul..
Have you no shame, don't
You see me?
I was told to stop
Believing, I'm only
Decieving myself...
Your voice has
Chased away all sanity in me..
Can you even remember yourself?
I'm frozen inside
Without your love,
I feel so dead..
It's like living
A lie, there's
Just nothing inside,
I've tried so hard to
Tell myself that
You're gone..
But in the end I guess
I had to fall..
Anything is better than to...
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You're all I see
Everywhere I look, you're
All I see.. Did it mean anything?
Can't you see you're my
Everything?
I need you,
But I see you don't need me..
Sadly, I can not let go
Like you want me too..
Anywhere I look, you're
All I see.. It didn't mean
Anything, but you are my everything..
I tried, but I got burned anyway..
Can't you see I need you?
Hold on! Please believe..
I'm on the outside
All over again.. I'm looking for
The answer, You wanted me, I wanted you..
But look now, This fight
May be the death of me...
It won't set...
All I see.. Did it mean anything?
Can't you see you're my
Everything?
I need you,
But I see you don't need me..
Sadly, I can not let go
Like you want me too..
Anywhere I look, you're
All I see.. It didn't mean
Anything, but you are my everything..
I tried, but I got burned anyway..
Can't you see I need you?
Hold on! Please believe..
I'm on the outside
All over again.. I'm looking for
The answer, You wanted me, I wanted you..
But look now, This fight
May be the death of me...
It won't set...
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Why Can't We...
Is this where we want to be in time?
I have gone to far,
To look back on where we were..
This is all I've known,
You are not alone!
Why can't we keep it together?
I'm closer than you know..
Its so hard to please,
I'm close to being the furthest thing,
Too cross in your mind.
Will you remember when
All faith in it all has
Left?
I'm closer than you know!
Why can't we keep it together?
Did you just leave?
Was it me?
I remember the days when
We used to be,
Something more than life..
Now a memory!...
I have gone to far,
To look back on where we were..
This is all I've known,
You are not alone!
Why can't we keep it together?
I'm closer than you know..
Its so hard to please,
I'm close to being the furthest thing,
Too cross in your mind.
Will you remember when
All faith in it all has
Left?
I'm closer than you know!
Why can't we keep it together?
Did you just leave?
Was it me?
I remember the days when
We used to be,
Something more than life..
Now a memory!...
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Any Where But Home
Nothing seems to matter
When being all alone,
There's no happy ever
After.. Standing by the phone,
But no one ever calls...
Nothing ever changes, it's
All the same old thing.
Sitting here and knowing
Nothing will go my way.
I want to go
Anywhere but home,
Nothing seems to matter
When your hearts just
Not in it.
I want to runaway and just lose
Myself, no one will
Seem to notice,
So I'll go anywhere but home..
Cause that's where I'm most alone.
When being all alone,
There's no happy ever
After.. Standing by the phone,
But no one ever calls...
Nothing ever changes, it's
All the same old thing.
Sitting here and knowing
Nothing will go my way.
I want to go
Anywhere but home,
Nothing seems to matter
When your hearts just
Not in it.
I want to runaway and just lose
Myself, no one will
Seem to notice,
So I'll go anywhere but home..
Cause that's where I'm most alone.
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Questions, But No Answers..
Why are you ignoring me?
Have I done something
To embarress you?
Why are you acting like I'm nothing?
Like I'm not real..
Like I'm invisible,
And nothing but a sad
Fading life you once knew?
Why do you hate me?
I don't remember
Ever misstreating you..
Why would you make me feel
So horrible about myself,
And make me feel like
I am a heartless person? I
Know I'm not trusted anymore,
But can't you please talk to me
About this?
Why are you making me into
Something you no longer love,
And why do you seem like...
Have I done something
To embarress you?
Why are you acting like I'm nothing?
Like I'm not real..
Like I'm invisible,
And nothing but a sad
Fading life you once knew?
Why do you hate me?
I don't remember
Ever misstreating you..
Why would you make me feel
So horrible about myself,
And make me feel like
I am a heartless person? I
Know I'm not trusted anymore,
But can't you please talk to me
About this?
Why are you making me into
Something you no longer love,
And why do you seem like...
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Devil and His Minion Speak Again
Their words throb through my head,
They scream and whisper..
Sometimes get out and make me
Believe they are behind me.
They laugh and cry,
They tell me
Everyone wants me to die.
They tell me I'm
Not what I was supposed to be..
They call me a dirty slut,
And a bad influence..
They say I'm useless
And I will never
Have any form of love.
They tell me I am
A pathetic child who
Will never be found..
They argue and keep me awake.
They won't leave..
It gets worse,
Because they will appear in a form.....
They scream and whisper..
Sometimes get out and make me
Believe they are behind me.
They laugh and cry,
They tell me
Everyone wants me to die.
They tell me I'm
Not what I was supposed to be..
They call me a dirty slut,
And a bad influence..
They say I'm useless
And I will never
Have any form of love.
They tell me I am
A pathetic child who
Will never be found..
They argue and keep me awake.
They won't leave..
It gets worse,
Because they will appear in a form.....
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Dealing With This Pain
Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain..
I don't understand this,
Is this how it's going to end?
Please tell me, I just need to know.
It's killing me, and it
Seems to be endless.
I don't know how
It'll end, but please
Just tell me.
I need to know
Cause it's
Hard to deal with this
Type of pain
When you don't know
Why deep inside you feel
Like you're being ripped apart by knives..
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain..
I don't understand this,
Is this how it's going to end?
Please tell me, I just need to know.
It's killing me, and it
Seems to be endless.
I don't know how
It'll end, but please
Just tell me.
I need to know
Cause it's
Hard to deal with this
Type of pain
When you don't know
Why deep inside you feel
Like you're being ripped apart by knives..
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Realistic
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Insomnia
I haven't slept
Right since my heart snapped..
I've been feeling like I need
To cry with every thought that runs
Through my mind.
Then you cross it..
I don't sleep, I'm too alone..
I feel like Like I'm
Losing the last part of me that
Was sane.. I'm told I'm not
Alone, but if I'm not,
Why do I feel like I am?
Why do I feel so forlorn?
I can't sleep knowing
I'm hated for everything,
When it's someting I know nothing of..
I get weary and grow senseless,
Emotionless.. Like I no longer
Know myself.. I tore myself
Apart...
Right since my heart snapped..
I've been feeling like I need
To cry with every thought that runs
Through my mind.
Then you cross it..
I don't sleep, I'm too alone..
I feel like Like I'm
Losing the last part of me that
Was sane.. I'm told I'm not
Alone, but if I'm not,
Why do I feel like I am?
Why do I feel so forlorn?
I can't sleep knowing
I'm hated for everything,
When it's someting I know nothing of..
I get weary and grow senseless,
Emotionless.. Like I no longer
Know myself.. I tore myself
Apart...
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Broken
I tried to
Wipe away my own tears for
Once.. Instead
That brought more
Hatred for myself.
I've fallen apart,
Far beyond to repair
Alone.. No matter how
Many people tell me to end
It completely, no matter
How many cruel people tell
Me I'm not wanted alive,
I'll ignore them,
Go through the day alone,
Tell my friends everything's 'Okay'
And silently cry to myself
In the deep night..
I'll blind myself of their
Truth, so I won't be
Able to hear their mocking voices.
Though I'll know it's true due
To the empty...
Wipe away my own tears for
Once.. Instead
That brought more
Hatred for myself.
I've fallen apart,
Far beyond to repair
Alone.. No matter how
Many people tell me to end
It completely, no matter
How many cruel people tell
Me I'm not wanted alive,
I'll ignore them,
Go through the day alone,
Tell my friends everything's 'Okay'
And silently cry to myself
In the deep night..
I'll blind myself of their
Truth, so I won't be
Able to hear their mocking voices.
Though I'll know it's true due
To the empty...
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I Made Myself Cry
Tonight,
I made myself cry..
I read through
Our old messages.. The oldest ones
From when we met a year ago, up til now.
I was breathless, what we had was
Something I believed that would never
Break and crumble.. Not even get a scratch
Nor crack..
I made myself cry by reading the
Creations we wrote, dreams we
Had, laughs we shared, and
The hopes we had for
Future times... I
Cried because that was
Something that was beautiful..
There was love and nothing but..
We talked from light til night..
...
I made myself cry..
I read through
Our old messages.. The oldest ones
From when we met a year ago, up til now.
I was breathless, what we had was
Something I believed that would never
Break and crumble.. Not even get a scratch
Nor crack..
I made myself cry by reading the
Creations we wrote, dreams we
Had, laughs we shared, and
The hopes we had for
Future times... I
Cried because that was
Something that was beautiful..
There was love and nothing but..
We talked from light til night..
...
801 reads
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