suicide survivors
Demian said:I had contemplated murder for quite some years, for the purpose of relief or mmaybe for the purpose of picking up my emotions. For many years I had been emotionally unstable as well as cowardly and suicide takes a lot of courage, glad I didn't attempt anything drastic, I simply realised I can take life into my own hands and It's mine to control. There are such things to see and feel if we break free of the prisons that hold us down, the ones others build around us and the ones we build around ourselves. It's not enough to simply stay strong against temptations but to break free of prisons and go somewhere. An alternative to suicide is wandering, get some cash and hitchike somewhere, anywhere, the desire for suicide is an extreme form of escapist desire, but it doesn't prolong life. You can anything you want and life can be good, If you simply desire it to be.
well put! glad you got over it :)
well put! glad you got over it :)
I have thought about suicide since I was 15. How I was going to do it I don't know but I wrote my suicide letter everyday until it was almost memorized...
Dear Whoever,
I'm sorry about this but what's the point of going on? I can't even stand myself. I'm a stupid little whore anyways. No one cares about whites right? I hate my life. I hate the fact that I was ever born. Mom, Clay, how could you just act like I'm okay all the time? I love you but I'm going.. don't be sad. Please don't be sad.
Good bye
Me
Dear Whoever,
I'm sorry about this but what's the point of going on? I can't even stand myself. I'm a stupid little whore anyways. No one cares about whites right? I hate my life. I hate the fact that I was ever born. Mom, Clay, how could you just act like I'm okay all the time? I love you but I'm going.. don't be sad. Please don't be sad.
Good bye
Me
GothicQueen666 said:I have thought about suicide since I was 15. How I was going to do it I don't know but I wrote my suicide letter everyday until it was almost memorized...
Dear Whoever,
I'm sorry about this but what's the point of going on? I can't even stand myself. I'm a stupid little whore anyways. No one cares about whites right? I hate my life. I hate the fact that I was ever born. Mom, Clay, how could you just act like I'm okay all the time? I love you but I'm going.. don't be sad. Please don't be sad.
Good bye
Me
sad:( but hopefully you will pull through its hard but totally worth it. side note what was that no one cares about whites thing?
Dear Whoever,
I'm sorry about this but what's the point of going on? I can't even stand myself. I'm a stupid little whore anyways. No one cares about whites right? I hate my life. I hate the fact that I was ever born. Mom, Clay, how could you just act like I'm okay all the time? I love you but I'm going.. don't be sad. Please don't be sad.
Good bye
Me
sad:( but hopefully you will pull through its hard but totally worth it. side note what was that no one cares about whites thing?
I have been in therapy since I was in first grade and I'm going into eleventh grade. I have been hospitalized 3 times I was in inpaitent drug rehabilitation 2 times. I was on many many medications. I was diagnosed with many different disorders. I also tried to kill my self more than five times and I had a huge issue with self harm. now I'm sober I take my medication I'm diagnosed with a personality disorder I go to AA meeting and therapy I don't self harm any more and I don't have suicidle thaughts. ;)
Downer said:I have been in therapy since I was in first grade and I'm going into eleventh grade. I have been hospitalized 3 times I was in inpaitent drug rehabilitation 2 times. I was on many many medications. I was diagnosed with many different disorders. I also tried to kill my self more than five times and I had a huge issue with self harm. now I'm sober I take my medication I'm diagnosed with a personality disorder I go to AA meeting and therapy I don't self harm any more and I don't have suicidle thaughts. ;) that's awesome!!!!! way to go 
anonymouslyhere said:[quote-259220-GothicQueen666]I have thought about suicide since I was 15. How I was going to do it I don't know but I wrote my suicide letter everyday until it was almost memorized...
Dear Whoever,
I'm sorry about this but what's the point of going on? I can't even stand myself. I'm a stupid little whore anyways. No one cares about whites right? I hate my life. I hate the fact that I was ever born. Mom, Clay, how could you just act like I'm okay all the time? I love you but I'm going.. don't be sad. Please don't be sad.
Good bye
Me
sad:( but hopefully you will pull through its hard but totally worth it. side note what was that no one cares about whites thing?[/quote]
I meant no one cares about whores. My phone is stupid..
Dear Whoever,
I'm sorry about this but what's the point of going on? I can't even stand myself. I'm a stupid little whore anyways. No one cares about whites right? I hate my life. I hate the fact that I was ever born. Mom, Clay, how could you just act like I'm okay all the time? I love you but I'm going.. don't be sad. Please don't be sad.
Good bye
Me
sad:( but hopefully you will pull through its hard but totally worth it. side note what was that no one cares about whites thing?[/quote]
I meant no one cares about whores. My phone is stupid..
GothicQueen666 said:[quote-259317-anonymouslyhere][quote-259220-GothicQueen666]I have thought about suicide since I was 15. How I was going to do it I don't know but I wrote my suicide letter everyday until it was almost memorized...
Dear Whoever,
I'm sorry about this but what's the point of going on? I can't even stand myself. I'm a stupid little whore anyways. No one cares about whites right? I hate my life. I hate the fact that I was ever born. Mom, Clay, how could you just act like I'm okay all the time? I love you but I'm going.. don't be sad. Please don't be sad.
Good bye
Me
sad:( but hopefully you will pull through its hard but totally worth it. side note what was that no one cares about whites thing?[/quote]
I meant no one cares about whores. My phone is stupid..[/quote]
ah I got ya
Dear Whoever,
I'm sorry about this but what's the point of going on? I can't even stand myself. I'm a stupid little whore anyways. No one cares about whites right? I hate my life. I hate the fact that I was ever born. Mom, Clay, how could you just act like I'm okay all the time? I love you but I'm going.. don't be sad. Please don't be sad.
Good bye
Me
sad:( but hopefully you will pull through its hard but totally worth it. side note what was that no one cares about whites thing?[/quote]
I meant no one cares about whores. My phone is stupid..[/quote]
ah I got ya
i tried committing suicide multiple times in eighth grade. I tried to jump out my window, hang myself, overdose, slit my own throat... but stopped when i realized that there is more to life than just dying and giving up. i still self harmed my freshman, sophomore, and first semester of my junior year... i'm clean now, but the hurtful memories of the shit i've been through still remain. if you look up some of my poems like "the ballad of aberly cynthe", "into the woods", and some of my love poems you'll get a few hints as to the why's and what made me so emotionally weak. i'm just glad i found the strength to stop and to find a new sense of normal.
