Poetry competition CLOSED 3rd September 2015 9:32pm
WINNER
calamitygin (Jennifer Michael McCurry)
calamitygin (Jennifer Michael McCurry)
RUNNERS-UP:
crimsin
and Thunderhorse14
Ending Self Destruction
My emotions tangle
This heart for me to strangle
The island of denial
Is a listless land taking
All my thoughts breaking
Into mind, into skin
Into heart, again and again
No more mutilating
But still contemplating
Further frustrating
Intoxicated fumes fueling flames
Mind games swirling
Inside these pearl of
My self destruction
Fueling my art-construction
That's not true, unrelenting
Thoughts repenting
Fell apart since I was young
All these things I've done
My mind a the gallows
My heart at the hollow
Dig me a shallow grave
My mind could cave
Simply settling for self destruction
My mind or relapse inflicting
Overthought reports are conflicting
No longer will I stay
No longer will I play
With my razor blade
My substance of death disdain
All that I gain
From contemplating circulating
Stay alive, can survive
Heatless hole
Mind I stole
From the rotting wood
Of a gallows gaze
Heart's a blaze
Mind's a maze
I can construct
And not self destruct
Even if the tears are red
Even if I can't clear my head
I just kneel and pray
For another dose of strength
To stay awake another day.
This heart for me to strangle
The island of denial
Is a listless land taking
All my thoughts breaking
Into mind, into skin
Into heart, again and again
No more mutilating
But still contemplating
Further frustrating
Intoxicated fumes fueling flames
Mind games swirling
Inside these pearl of
My self destruction
Fueling my art-construction
That's not true, unrelenting
Thoughts repenting
Fell apart since I was young
All these things I've done
My mind a the gallows
My heart at the hollow
Dig me a shallow grave
My mind could cave
Simply settling for self destruction
My mind or relapse inflicting
Overthought reports are conflicting
No longer will I stay
No longer will I play
With my razor blade
My substance of death disdain
All that I gain
From contemplating circulating
Stay alive, can survive
Heatless hole
Mind I stole
From the rotting wood
Of a gallows gaze
Heart's a blaze
Mind's a maze
I can construct
And not self destruct
Even if the tears are red
Even if I can't clear my head
I just kneel and pray
For another dose of strength
To stay awake another day.
Pussy Slappings
a pity party without panties
someone needs to slap some sense
into your pussy
someone needs to slap the crap
out of your booty
you can’t find what you looking for
if you never lost your mind
you can’t ride unicorns
without losing your human uniform
a mime that minds,
you grew up but didn’t get better
you’re addicted to bad weather
you’re a sad umbrella in a sad sweater
someone needs to slap your pussy
slap the sap out of your pussy.
pussy slappings should happen
more often,
every pussy deserves to smile.
a pity party without panties
someone needs to slap some sense
into your pussy
someone needs to slap the crap
out of your booty
you can’t find what you looking for
if you never lost your mind
you can’t ride unicorns
without losing your human uniform
a mime that minds,
you grew up but didn’t get better
you’re addicted to bad weather
you’re a sad umbrella in a sad sweater
someone needs to slap your pussy
slap the sap out of your pussy.
pussy slappings should happen
more often,
every pussy deserves to smile.
Day by Day
“I will no longer mutilate and destroy myself in order to find a secret behind the ruins.” – Hermann Hesse
Time heals most everything
But picking at scabs makes deeper scars
And putting the blade back in
To sever the stitches,
Peel back the skin,
Crack the ribcage open,
And pry the chest apart,
To check on tender wounds
Left across a broken heart
Is simply mutilation.
This invasive procedure
refuses to alieve or
comfort the flood
of sweet memory,
Lungs fill with blood
and aspirate;
exacerbating nightmares
of gasping for air
that’s never there
While grasping what’s left
of the stray strands of hair
that still show up from time to time;
Remnants of the last time
it felt like she was mine….
when we held each other tight
at the edge of a sunrise
But the sun always rises and the sun always falls…
And sometimes days slip away without meaning.
One breath at a time...
Step by step,
Heartbeat by heartbeat,
Day by day,
Rinse and repeat...
Searching for love inside of me,
Love to brand with the destiny
to keep for myself, exclusively,
To grow into a ball of light,
to glow through those endless nights,
Standing on my own two feet,
refusing the pain of defeat,
breathing in a sweet summer breeze.
“I will no longer mutilate and destroy myself in order to find a secret behind the ruins.” – Hermann Hesse
Time heals most everything
But picking at scabs makes deeper scars
And putting the blade back in
To sever the stitches,
Peel back the skin,
Crack the ribcage open,
And pry the chest apart,
To check on tender wounds
Left across a broken heart
Is simply mutilation.
This invasive procedure
refuses to alieve or
comfort the flood
of sweet memory,
Lungs fill with blood
and aspirate;
exacerbating nightmares
of gasping for air
that’s never there
While grasping what’s left
of the stray strands of hair
that still show up from time to time;
Remnants of the last time
it felt like she was mine….
when we held each other tight
at the edge of a sunrise
But the sun always rises and the sun always falls…
And sometimes days slip away without meaning.
One breath at a time...
Step by step,
Heartbeat by heartbeat,
Day by day,
Rinse and repeat...
Searching for love inside of me,
Love to brand with the destiny
to keep for myself, exclusively,
To grow into a ball of light,
to glow through those endless nights,
Standing on my own two feet,
refusing the pain of defeat,
breathing in a sweet summer breeze.
Not a entry but just another poem inspired by your comp
Pieces
Take away my shattered heart I only feel pain
Wipe away these memories they drive me insane
Reminiscing on the past acting like its the same
But it can never go back it can't be changed
Theses pieces too destroyed to be rearranged
What i would do to go back my soul i would exchange
But its to late cupid already missed his mark
And I was never ment to be the one with your heart
Leaving only me to put back these uncompleted parts
So go ahead and take out my eyes all i see is your face
Rip out my tongue your lips I still only taste
Remove my legs cause in the end its you who i chase
Cut off my head but still your on my mind
These wounds mixed with salt but I try to act fine
Wondering this void of love but only you I find
Still haunted by your lies about staying forever
Without a needle i can't be stitched back together
Lost with out my other half my feeling are severed
Cut open my throat cause I can no longer swallow back this pain
Remove both hemispheres but your still trapped inside my brain
Cause in the end I will always remember your name
Pieces
Take away my shattered heart I only feel pain
Wipe away these memories they drive me insane
Reminiscing on the past acting like its the same
But it can never go back it can't be changed
Theses pieces too destroyed to be rearranged
What i would do to go back my soul i would exchange
But its to late cupid already missed his mark
And I was never ment to be the one with your heart
Leaving only me to put back these uncompleted parts
So go ahead and take out my eyes all i see is your face
Rip out my tongue your lips I still only taste
Remove my legs cause in the end its you who i chase
Cut off my head but still your on my mind
These wounds mixed with salt but I try to act fine
Wondering this void of love but only you I find
Still haunted by your lies about staying forever
Without a needle i can't be stitched back together
Lost with out my other half my feeling are severed
Cut open my throat cause I can no longer swallow back this pain
Remove both hemispheres but your still trapped inside my brain
Cause in the end I will always remember your name
I filled the bucket
I spilled the bucket
Out on the floor
A mistake for sure
Once more I clean up
Once more I dream of
A boy so composed
Wishful thinking, I know
I wrap myself in a blanket
Singing my pity song
The inevitable tangent
I wonder where things went wrong
And oh
Oh my god,
Just please,
Don't ever let me go
Sometimes we're high
Sometimes we're low
All my messes
They've got me thinking you see
I'm a walking case of ruin
Why be with me?
oh, no
That was the night we
Kissed in the moonlight
It was romantic
But didn't feel so right
Something was lost than
Your lips, they tasted
Like sorrow and happiness
And constant headaches
I'm just confused and
So are you too
But it was you who
Let me become this mess
And oh
Oh my god,
Just please
Don't ever let me know
Shield my eyes
Tell me lies
Keep it a secret
Keep it from me
Things will always ruin
If you're with me
I spilled the bucket
Out on the floor
A mistake for sure
Once more I clean up
Once more I dream of
A boy so composed
Wishful thinking, I know
I wrap myself in a blanket
Singing my pity song
The inevitable tangent
I wonder where things went wrong
And oh
Oh my god,
Just please,
Don't ever let me go
Sometimes we're high
Sometimes we're low
All my messes
They've got me thinking you see
I'm a walking case of ruin
Why be with me?
oh, no
That was the night we
Kissed in the moonlight
It was romantic
But didn't feel so right
Something was lost than
Your lips, they tasted
Like sorrow and happiness
And constant headaches
I'm just confused and
So are you too
But it was you who
Let me become this mess
And oh
Oh my god,
Just please
Don't ever let me know
Shield my eyes
Tell me lies
Keep it a secret
Keep it from me
Things will always ruin
If you're with me
Pardon Me
the devil stole my prayers
I his accomplice
I used my hands as a mask
as I knelt before God so he wouldn't recognize me within St. Peter's catacombs
told Him what I wanted to hear
as the fertile seeds grew quicker weaving the trellis of my mind
each panicle an escapee for the larceny of my convictions
freedom has no key
nor cell
and I am satisfied cresting the gallows
the devil stole my prayers
I his accomplice
I used my hands as a mask
as I knelt before God so he wouldn't recognize me within St. Peter's catacombs
told Him what I wanted to hear
as the fertile seeds grew quicker weaving the trellis of my mind
each panicle an escapee for the larceny of my convictions
freedom has no key
nor cell
and I am satisfied cresting the gallows
Murder She Wrote
Blood red all around
no murder weapon,
no body found.
Crimson splats
left on the walls
broken glass
I saw it all.
You were told
to stay outside
I told you twice
to run and hide.
Things got crazy
we had a fight
I stabbed that fucker
with my knife
I stabbed him twice
right in his face
then sprayed his eyes
with Asian mace.
I reached inside
my leather boot
pulled out my gun
"MOM PLEASE!
DON'T SHOOT!"
He fell right over
and hit the floor
I kicked his ass
to the door.
I tied his body
first his feet
then tied his neck
yes nice and neat.
To my truck his ride
was ready
on the back flap of my
Chevy.
Off the path
I drove all night
dragged his body
left and right.
I drove my truck
down a winding road
and stopped and dropped
him in a hole.
I drove on home
the door was locked
my child screamed
it's face in shock!
Cop lights flashing
you must not tell,
I killed your father
now ring the bell !
Blood red all around
no murder weapon,
no body found.
Crimson splats
left on the walls
broken glass
I saw it all.
You were told
to stay outside
I told you twice
to run and hide.
Things got crazy
we had a fight
I stabbed that fucker
with my knife
I stabbed him twice
right in his face
then sprayed his eyes
with Asian mace.
I reached inside
my leather boot
pulled out my gun
"MOM PLEASE!
DON'T SHOOT!"
He fell right over
and hit the floor
I kicked his ass
to the door.
I tied his body
first his feet
then tied his neck
yes nice and neat.
To my truck his ride
was ready
on the back flap of my
Chevy.
Off the path
I drove all night
dragged his body
left and right.
I drove my truck
down a winding road
and stopped and dropped
him in a hole.
I drove on home
the door was locked
my child screamed
it's face in shock!
Cop lights flashing
you must not tell,
I killed your father
now ring the bell !
“I will no longer mutilate and destroy myself in order to find a secret behind the ruins.”
NEED TO MAN UP
I was thirteen, wind in my hair
Feet on the handlebars
Flying down the hill near my home
‘Tis where it all began
A sense of finally knowing who I am
No longer hiding behind the façade
I was out there being me
After smoking some weed
It’s hard to explain to those
Who’ve never experienced the high
I tried once, with my Mum
When I was twenty-three
But she couldn’t understand why
All these years I’ve continued
Filling my body willingly with ecstasy
In some cases, literally
In others, with everything imaginable
Taking more and more to see my secret me
For awhile I had a tidy business
Made quite a packet till the cops came along
Next stop was the road called normality
But I didn’t and still don’t belong
Somehow I think if I keep taking, smoking, drinking
Whatever I can lay my hands upon
I’ll lasso him, make him stay where he belongs
But my psych says I’m destroying myself
There’s no secret me behind the ruins
I’m thirty-seven now, have a six year old girl
A partner who stays and I question why
I need to man up
Pull myself the fuck up
Stop fucking up
And live my life
Thank you to everyone who participated in this competition. I read your entries as they were posted but I'm going to review them again. I will decide on the winner by the middle of next week. Thank you again...I am humbled to be among such wonderful talent.
There is no ending tomorrow cuz soon it'll be today and as yesterday goes running and whimpering you'll learn that tomorrow is no more then a VHS scanning for today........ And so it goes, ForeveR, another tape trapped behind us as the other pukes fore
I declare myself the winner! Because I have had the privilege to read and reread all of your words. The genuine pain, discouragement, hope and resolute desire to change demonstrated in these works is awe inspiring and truly helpful in my quest for personal serenity. I am sincere when I say that this was a difficult decision and I would like to award you all for your participation.
Calamitygin (Jennifer) is our winner! I have choose Crimsin and Thunderhorse14 as Runner's Up. Congratulations!
Once again, thank you all. This competition, for me, has been profoundly therapeutic and your words, because I read them several times, will stay with me for some time to come. I give you all a standing ovation and a hearty BRAVO!
Calamitygin (Jennifer) is our winner! I have choose Crimsin and Thunderhorse14 as Runner's Up. Congratulations!
Once again, thank you all. This competition, for me, has been profoundly therapeutic and your words, because I read them several times, will stay with me for some time to come. I give you all a standing ovation and a hearty BRAVO!
