Heart Break- Make Me Cry

Strong heart
Sharp mind
Frail body
by the end

A monument to womanhood
why did I neglect you then

Prior to the news
you were vibrant and quick
I didn't think much of it
when I was told that you were sick

I passed the chance to visit
I had school work to avoid
I had some pot to smoke
I'd rather play with toys

and when we got the phone call
some time in the dead of night
I didn't hear the words said
but I heard my mother cry

And I knew that you were gone
and I let my sorrow out
but part of me was sad for me
how I was now without

You were every celebration
you were every gift
you rallied our small family
moments of togetherness

Since your passing we have drifted
now we have no holidays
Christmas is no longer joyous
but the darkest of my days

A reminder of your strength
of the hearth you would provide
and it still rips apart my heart
that I never said goodbye

"A Child's Lost Innocence"

I woke up today...
And remembered it's a special day
I stumbled into my clothes
I get to go to my auntie's today
I ate breakfast
It was toaster waffles, yay!
I went to school
Brady said that worms don't eat
I said he was dumb.
I ate my lunch
Peanut butter again?
I played recess
I beat Brady on the monkey bars
I got ready to go
I get to see auntie I get to see auntie
I hop on the school bus
Bouncing in my seat
I get off the bus
Dashing to the door
I knock on it excitedly
No answer just quiet
I open the door
Step inside, my smile starting to fade
I close the door
It's silent all around
I am scared now
Where is auntie?
I walk to the dining room
It looks weird with all this red
My heart is racing now
I push the door to the kitchen
I can't breathe...what is that
I stare at what I can't understand
This red mess in blankets
That piece across the floor
I just stand there
Chest heaving
Where is that screaming
Why is it in my head
Because it's me that's shrieking
I finally comprehend
I saw my auntie today
I'm running out the door
I'm pleading for someone to help me
I'm stumbling towards the neighbor
Trying to get them to understand
What's waiting in that kitchen
Mommy,
Where's my mommy
There is more screaming
Only it's not from me
Someone else saw auntie
Someone else knows
I don't know what to do
Everything is spinning
Everything is shaking
Where is my mommy?
Everything goes black.

i have no explanation
for what happened to us
i belive the newness wore off
and when you didnt return any of my calls over spring break
i knew i was having an existential crisis
i had a case of heart ache
what we had was beautiful but then you became a senior
i am still getting over our breakup.
though i know that we wont ever probably makeup.

be back like the plague

somebody killed little lilly the girl I adore
the girl no on cared for
bruises and brands were all of her skin
wounds I now cannot mend
this poor girl took the pain of the world
but only worried for her brown flowing curls
at her age you'd expected a joyed voice
but only whispers from the girl with burns and blisters
never did she leave her boarded house
'less she snuck like a mouse
other than me all she knew was abuse
six years old and she tied a perfect noose
never did she weep or make a peep
nor could she smile or sleep
I heard the bangs from her house that night
when I arrived I saw a sad sight
I couldn't think when I saw my Lilly covered in blood
I closed her eyes that should a blue flood
I slowly died this whole thing was wrong
I soon discovered...those curls were gone
I see what caused this.. damn what took me so long
her music book was attacked...her parents hated every song
somebody kil-murdered little lilly the girl I adore
the girl.....no on cared for

You Mean To Tell Me This Aint Chicken

hungrier than a horny hurricane
thirstier than a hippopotamus on cocaine
dropped in for a bite to eat
the new restaurant that didn't serve meat
but what the chicken nuggets
I'll try it, expand my horizons
ordered the Sesame Orange Chik'n
with a bowl of steamed white rice
it looked interesting
but tasted boring
what the fucked did I just order
heart break on a plate
I paid money for something fake
but I ate it any way, swallowing my cardboard pride
I couldn't smile, it would be fake and dishonest
I left a tip and left quick
if you gonna eat something, eat it right
no more fake tears tonight
life feeds off life, and life goes on and on
play my part, there's something positive
in the way beings depart
the science of survival out rivals the living art
eating fake food makes you feel weird
eat real, eat raw
because we all get eaten, even the stars

"Let Go"

I guess it doesn’t matter
Whether you remember or not how we first met
Or how we first started talking
What was our topic and how we came to be where we are now
People go into wrong turns and sometimes take things a bit too fast
When you’re caught by the eye and thought you’ve been kept by the heart
You have to remember.
Promises lead to high expectations
High expectations lead to false hope and disappointment
False hope and disappointment lead to a broken heart
And from a broken heart comes one lonely soul
Coz we say things we don’t mean
Remember the things we want to forget
Pretend to feel the feelings we don’t
I guess we overdid ours
Exaggerating our every move
Planning things for the future
Didn’t know that there was more to the definition of some word
We vented our hearts out and we both paid attention
And we tend not to forget the worthy ones
You didn’t know, neither did I, that we were both worth keeping.
I’m sorry that I let you go
That I encouraged your thoughts
And couldn’t control what was in my head nor yours
That you weren’t able to hold me like how you’ve always dreamed of
And couldn’t keep me like how you’ve always wanted to.
The only thing I fantasized about was holding your hand
Breathing in your scent
Looking through your eyes as you look deeply in mine
You can forget me if you wish to do so
Go ahead and fly to some other land like how you always do
If this is too much for you
If looking at me has been unbearable
Hearing my name causes you too much pain
And my presence has made the air around you thick
Making it hard for you to breathe,
Then walk away
As fast as you can, and don’t cry for me
If I added up too much to your grief
Then turn your back and leave
I can’t make you forget all the awful things
But what’s worse is that I’ve lost the ability to give you better memories to remember
So if you ever think that I came into your life
And just made a part of it uncomfortable
I’m sorry.
You can go ahead and let go.

You can tear away the curtains from these burnt
and broken windows  
but the dusted light won’t penetrate    
the blackest of my shadows  
where I've always kept
my secrets swept  
beneath
the faded carpet  
where the darkness
always held me    
as I sat
and lit    
my cigarette    
and wept.  
Hopeless feelings in my heart    
and head  
were madness  
content to have  
the walls    
my only witness    
to the idle words I whispered  
“I know she is a monster, but I    
will always love  
have always loved  
will always want her.”  
You inhale just to feel the cancer  
exhale just to know the answer  
comes from when
you find the dancer  
twirling in your brain  
and ask her if she loves you  
or if you've simply
gone insane  
trying to complicate
the things  
that once were clear and plain  
it’s getting harder to remember  
how once  
We were the same

One Sunday morning
My world came alight
That marble block of darkness
Dazzled very bright

I found something to treasure
To cherish and adore
Something reassuring
Loneliness will be no more

It was vows and promises
No joy terrestrial
Could compare to what I felt
She made me feel celestial

Her touch was divine
Her wisdom far higher
Her beauty was a miracle
She kindled a dying fire

Have you ever had that feeling
That sticks for a long while
Then upon seeing that one person
You melt into a smile

She meant everything to me
Loving was my ritual
She played the script so well
So I thought the feeling was mutual

Of course we had our differences
Our quarrels and our fights
But no matter how bitter we were
None of them crossed the night

For dawn always brought a new song
New smiles and new devotion
For once I could look up in gratitude
For this god-given companion

But I was heading for slaughter
Disaster was close in hand
Everything I treasured was going away
Yet I didn't understand

That last night was the sweetest of all
She definitely saved the best for the last
So the memory can hurt so much
Whenever I reflect on the past

It was laughter and passionate love making
That night not a single star peeped
We renewed our vows and promises
What we shared was for keeps

But that was the beginning of the end
Our love was about to be slain
All the promises and the vows
Unfulfilled must remain

That fateful morning as usual
I jumped up from bed in ecstasy
To say how sweet my night had been
But my girl was not with me

Just her scent and a note that read
"Sorry love,I must move on
I know it's hard but I know with time
You'll get used to it so be strong"

Minutes to hours,days to weeks
This was no longer a joke
The only one I adored
Had vanished like a smoke

It was tears,it was confusion
Endless thoughts and endless pain
Before her there was many
And after her many came

But it was never the same again
The warmest side of me had died
Loving never meant more
Than just a game to make me feel alive

For one sunday morning
I felt an Angel's touch
On another Sunday morning
My blessing became my curse

Airborne Naivety    

The sun shines
turning green
to golden
a Helicopter flies
rumbling over
the kids play
all nice
with happy airborne
cries
I stare through vacant
eyes
under my cover .

Pretentiousness
says
I'm ok
my world was here
just  
but now
I'm worlds away
all seconds
in time
they beckon
that I pay
all ventures in life
of late
keep going
the wrong way .

I've never
proved
me right
just invented
my own strife
contentiousness
is all I find
recollection dust , does
struggle in the highs
that's why I feel , I must
join their airborne cries
and free
some real good luck
and see through
naive eyes
I'm thinking
about too much
those situations
of un-just
I'm educating
myself trust
to stop the craving
of your love .

[b]one day...[b]

as sure as the sun rises then sets  
and the moon plays hide and seek with the stars  
my feelings for you have not dissipated  
they still play havoc with my heart  
   
the seasons change  
the planets realign  
but the constellations stay the same  
and so it is with my desire  
   
the distance between us physically  
now matches yours emotionally  
and every day i promise  
no more writings about you  
but still words flow from my mind
   
my life rolls on as i set my goals  
yet a flicker of hope, of trust, pervades my soul  
that one day, you'll make contact  
 
today my emotional pain is heightened  
only because the pendulum's swinging  
to those looking in on me  
i'm a picture of normalcy  
but when the shutters on my eyes open  
when no one is looking  
they show 'something' which is hard to define  
   
vacant, distant, searching  
a puzzle piece missing  
then, quickly they close  
and i get on with my life  
   
one day i'm sure i'll wake and  
you'll be a distant memory  
a star in a far flung galaxy    
visiting mine once in a trillion years  
   
till then, i'm this woman  
who's surprised to see  
after such little time together  
after so many weeks, months apart  
she could still feel like this  
so deep in her heart  
   
i know it's all part of my journey  
and i'll look back on this time and smile    
but the future smile will reach my eyes  
because the sadness there has said goodbye
and finally...i'll understand...why...  
   
   
   

Thank you all for posting. Wish I could have given you all awards...

I forgot to enter this one... but congratz to the winner...
I read your piece,... you did a banging Job!!

Well Deserved win.

Congratulations to David and Miss Indie. Yay me...:) awesome entries everyone.