Disgust and Repugnance

Filthy

I disgust myself
coke whore on my knees
to take in my lines

asking for more in my most seductive way
alcoholic of the party
getting too loud and flirtatious

groping men and women alike
feeling bad the next day
hands shaking almost vomiting

my first shot of liquor
fists balled up in anger
in a rage at oneself

candy coated bullshit lies
I tell myself about who I truly am
though the real me comes out in my writes

crass running around the place naked
no covering for my filthy smut filled thoughts
attention whore with no real talent

if there is any it died long ago
with my pride
now nothing left but the dregs

I repel myself
bitter fruit
no one should eat

Thank you everyone for your patience. And your participation. Lovely entries everyone, and to all the winners...awesome entries all. Honoured that you entered them in my competition. Hope you will enter my next competition.

Grace, thanks for hosting and for the well-appreciated nod. Congrats to Franko and Graveyard Bard for some truly excellent work. Also, Crim--you are extremely talented and nothing will ever change that!

Wow - what an honour! Thank you very much Grace for this great challenging competition. The caliber of writers was amazing - well done to all of the entrants, there were many skin crawl and look away moments in this great batch of works. Special mention to Toni and Graveyard Bard - well done guys!