Oh please help, wont you?

We've all needed help at one point or another, so lets have a comp about it!. It can be a cry for help from dying in the desert, to suicidal thoughts, addictions, anything.

Be creative in how your begging for help, maybe no one can hear you, maybe your afraid, you get the picture. any genre, poem or prose. No collabs, other than that no limits.


Two weeks.

I sink
Somehow expecting to float
And I remember
Every word you I wrote

I feel like they're all laughing
Why at me? Can't they see?
That I'm trying to find a pathway
To rest my head and sleep

But there will never be a clear result
I wasn't told the rules to these games
And I'll still say it's my fault
For flaunting all my pains

So I'll lie down like a dead man
Feeling so helpless inside
For I cannot end this life
It remains an endless ride.

I scare easily
at the thought
of tomorrow

won't you help
me today...

"Faith In What I Don't Believe"


God save me from myself before it's too late
Jesus heal my empty heart before I can't find your love
Stop me from deciding to change your plan for my fate
Give me a reason to live, please send a sign from above

There's too much past piled on top of me to rise up
I can't see anything in my future but more of my past
Tell me is the grail your blood or just an empty cup?
An empty cup filled with salvation from the meal you served last

Does any of it matter now that I have decided to die?
Where are you now, where are your footprints in the sand?
Or is it all a bunch of nice stories masking an elaborate lie?
Now I ponder to put my life in your palms or take it by my own hand

To find piece of mind would have helped a long time ago
But now the peace I seek is only for my heart
To put it's aching to rest, to gather up the pain and let go
For the life I neglected and allowed to fall apart

There's no one to blame but me, no guilt lies beyond my flesh
My weakness lies within where I let it take control
And everything I never did left my mind a mess
A state of mind reflected in the pooled tears of my lost soul

But there's no maid who's coming to my home to dust off my eyes
No one is coming to help me clean up the disaster I've become
And my sins will follow me to my grave, so many forgive-less lies
Confession may free my soul but none of them can be undone

So I have no doubts about why you have turned your back on me
God I don't blame you even if this was written in your list of things to do
And now my only hope is to find faith in what I don't believe
Jesus where are you, where are you, where are you?  

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(by jj johnson)

Scourge

When I needed you most
I had already learned not to
knew that a cry to your ears
was wasted
I stumbled and staggered
fell and slept in deaths embrace
still I knew
not to expect your care

And although I knew
that you'd give me nothing
I never expected you'd
block my every exit and hope
I'd suffocate

I expired many times a
day back then
until I dissolved and found
I'd reassembled like sediment
left at the bottom
when the rest dried up

I let you go forever then
and when you deny letting go of me
I know you're right
because you never had a hold
to begin with

I remember when I used to cry
with my arms wrapped around you as you slept
Instead of wanting to die
I begged for enough strength to let you live, so I wouldn’t live with more regret

Unsure at first, of what to do
when you came into my life; I didn’t know what a gift you would turn out to be
At that point in my life, it was me or you
My cries for help were not all for me; I didn’t know what else to do

I took you for granted, when you needed me most of all
Being selfish, I asked God to help you give me support and help
But you did nothing but lay there, dreaming like a little doll
Silently I prayed, mouthing words of desperation, as I tried to sort out how I felt

It became a ritual, every night of the week
I lay beside your silent self
Hoping to gain strength; I was gentle and meek
As I caressed your soft head, I listened to your heart; your body I gently held

My tears flowed, and your pillow got wet
I wiped some off your face as I nuzzled you close
Always holding you as near as I could get
As I silently cried out for you, asking God to protect you the most

With those days now gone, few decades later, I turned the page
And I watch as you make your way through life
You are much stronger than I was at your age
It makes me happy that you live without such strife

Little did you know at the time
that your little body was helping me get strong; we formed a bond
You were my savior and one of a kind
My baby, my gift from God, I’m so glad the past is now gone

A smile is deceptive, it's the eyes you need to seek
No one wants to see past the smile yet even then they know
Happy and full of glee, I put on the best of the show
My life is amazing, friends and family make it
But when even I believe the smile, my hope is lost

If my mind it pleas for help, my eyes will show
They would all surround me, worried
Though I can't see why
Horror fills their eyes, sorrow overwhelms
Why do they say they wished I was different

I would walk alone in a crowded room, my smile high
Greeting friends with laughter
Hugging and screaming with joy

Days would pass and I would stay my happy self
Though everyone started leaving, changing
Some friends would leave, they would yell with no reason
They couldn't take my smile much longer

One day they have left, now I'm all alone
But that's is okay, my smile will bring along a new day
I sleep so soundly, I just can't leave
Yet I open my eyes to a sight so filling

Everyone hovers, they yell and they scream
I blink my eyes and they are nowhere to be seen
I blink once more and the sirens blare
But I lay here peacefully, why are they here
What do they think has happened, can't they see my smile

My smile should say that I am okay
Yet they still hover around me
I get up and walk to the crying person against the wall
It will be fine, there's nothing wrong at all
But such bliss isn't right

I turn and see why they all have such looks
They can't hear that I'm okay, I smile but they can't see, won't see
I look at myself, a horrified mess
I'm the one who never heard the plea

Fire! FIRE! My brain's on Fire!!
Find the town crier...MY DAMN BRAIN IS ON FIRE!

Gun'n my engine; running free, running clear
Always keeps up, always stays near

Dragon's on the loose; I'm start'n ta tire
Bogged down in the mud; filthy with mire
Head's caught in flames of the  funeral pyre!

The Dragon, she keeps coming, matches in hand
Comes with her demons, that make up her band
So heated up, I'm almost ablaze,
Choking and stricken within a smoldering haze
Can't find my way out of this illogical maze

Ring Ring; "911, what's your emergency?"

"Hello?  Help ME! My damn brain is on FIRE!"

You tell me, "Hold on.  Cool water's on the way"

I scratch and I scream;  I keep you at bay
"Oil and water; not a good mix
Where's that damn dragon...I'm needing a fix?!?"

Fight fire with fire!
That's what they say
Go down with the ship?
I don't wanna pay!
Can't foot the bill
I'll pray for God's WILL!!

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O you petty minded human.


O you petty minded human!

Because you see no devil
Does not mean
I see not plenty

And if you cannot detect the pun
In my wordplay
How can you see the card
Up my sleeve?

You get the point?
No?
Oh i forgot you are the

O you petty minded human!

For sake of purpose, permit me to
Plead to deaf ears;
Help me fight bloodthirsty devils you can't see,
Help me endure excrutiating pain you can't feel
Help me out of a trench you are not in
Help me. . .

Please just smile for me
Be at peace for me
Laugh for me

O you petty minded human!

Keep those entry's coming, great job so far!

A Cry For Help That No One Hears


The Whispers In The Back Of My Head,
Wanting to Turn My Arms Crimson Red,
I Remember I Use to Lay Beside You,
And Tell You How Much I Hated Myself,
And You'd Trace My Scars On My Arms,
With the Blink Of Any Eye,You Said Good Bye.
A Cry For Help,
Stuck In The Middle Of This Personal Hell,
The Blade Use to Be My Only Saviour,
But Now That Won't Even Stop The Pain,
Not Even With the Swipe Of a Blade,
The Pain's Taking Over,
I Can't Control It anymore..
I Feel Like Dying..
I Hate Myself Even More..
The Pain Won't go Away..
Not even with a Rusty Blade..
The Pain Never goes Away..