The darkness inside you
Anonymous
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Drawing Blood
razors dance across aching skin
a memory within a dream
metallic light shimmers
in a darkened space
cold steel
real life
drawing blood
crimson stains upon satin sheets
life pools within my hand
black pain flows
from a darkened place
cold winds
dead thoughts
drawing blood
dreams blur into the reality of a moment
mischievous shadows taunt
illumination of a hallucination
upon a darkened heart
frozen fear
whispered words
drawing blood
closed eyes see with sullen urgency
how quickly a moment can spin out of control
a broken hearted promise
remains intact
frozen tears
recited words
drawing blood
razors dance across aching skin
a memory within a dream
metallic light shimmers
in a darkened space
cold steel
real life
drawing blood
crimson stains upon satin sheets
life pools within my hand
black pain flows
from a darkened place
cold winds
dead thoughts
drawing blood
dreams blur into the reality of a moment
mischievous shadows taunt
illumination of a hallucination
upon a darkened heart
frozen fear
whispered words
drawing blood
closed eyes see with sullen urgency
how quickly a moment can spin out of control
a broken hearted promise
remains intact
frozen tears
recited words
drawing blood
Anonymous
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Anonymous
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Anonymous
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there are no more words
in my vocabulary
for this
only sounds
a typewriter
thrown out of a second story window
that a semi decimates in the streets
there is a place
where words are meaningless-
frivolous
and i hope to remember
to forget
in my vocabulary
for this
only sounds
a typewriter
thrown out of a second story window
that a semi decimates in the streets
there is a place
where words are meaningless-
frivolous
and i hope to remember
to forget
Anonymous
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Darkness On A Weary Soul~
I never meant to be so bad,
I don't know why I feel so fucking mad.
Since I recall I've been this way,
I tried so hard to not just go astray.
But everything I tried to do
Just built it up, inside my hunger grew.
And Innocence fell through my hands,
I have become something, just not a Man.
A monster with such lying eyes,
Those who have trusted now in graves they lie.
I didn't mean to bring such Pain,
Couldn't control the thing that I became.
It lived in my veins, lived in my Heart,
And with such passion tore them all apart.
But that is Me, it's who I am,
By my own self am I to be condemned.
I know exactly what I do,
I know in Time this Life will take me, too.
It is a sickness I cant cure,
An ailment in this life I cant endure.
I wish I could have just been Good,
Became a Man I knew and understood.
But Darkness on a weary soul,
Creates something that has no self-control.
My Innocence was drowned by Hate,
I would now sell my soul to change my fate.
I saw the things that I would do,
And knew I wasn't like the rest of you.
I didn't play the way you did,
I was an awkward little twisted shit.
I liked to hurt things I would catch,
I'd watch them die then throw them in the trash.
Sometimes I'd save some of their heads,
And hang their skulls across my room on thread.
As I grew older I moved on,
I went from cats and dogs to something strong.
An animal is easy prey,
But hunting Men is such a harder game.
Once I began I was a fiend,
I had to kill to find a moments peace.
It's like a junkie in my mind,
Begging and begging not to be confined.
It always wants to just get high,
And watch the life drain from somebody's eyes.
These days I try to keep it down,
But, Oh, those fucking urges come around.
I drop my walls and lose control,
And kill, like I have never killed before.
Each time more blood and much more pain,
It seems in vain I have this Hate contained.
So here I write my last request,
That I may finally be granted rest.
I ask only that I be burned,
And to the Earth my ashes be returned.
For now the beast in me is still,
So there's just one last victim left to kill.
I just want you to know I tried,
But couldn't change what I became inside.
So now I say to you, at last,
I'm tired...and The Sleep is coming fast.
Pretty soon my veins will be drained,
And this Pain will fade to memories stained.
Tell nobody what I have done,
And don't ever speak my name.
Let me fade away No one,
And let not their Pain become my fame.
I never meant to be so bad,
I don't know why I feel so fucking mad.
Since I recall I've been this way,
I tried so hard to not just go astray.
But everything I tried to do
Just built it up, inside my hunger grew.
And Innocence fell through my hands,
I have become something, just not a Man.
A monster with such lying eyes,
Those who have trusted now in graves they lie.
I didn't mean to bring such Pain,
Couldn't control the thing that I became.
It lived in my veins, lived in my Heart,
And with such passion tore them all apart.
But that is Me, it's who I am,
By my own self am I to be condemned.
I know exactly what I do,
I know in Time this Life will take me, too.
It is a sickness I cant cure,
An ailment in this life I cant endure.
I wish I could have just been Good,
Became a Man I knew and understood.
But Darkness on a weary soul,
Creates something that has no self-control.
My Innocence was drowned by Hate,
I would now sell my soul to change my fate.
I saw the things that I would do,
And knew I wasn't like the rest of you.
I didn't play the way you did,
I was an awkward little twisted shit.
I liked to hurt things I would catch,
I'd watch them die then throw them in the trash.
Sometimes I'd save some of their heads,
And hang their skulls across my room on thread.
As I grew older I moved on,
I went from cats and dogs to something strong.
An animal is easy prey,
But hunting Men is such a harder game.
Once I began I was a fiend,
I had to kill to find a moments peace.
It's like a junkie in my mind,
Begging and begging not to be confined.
It always wants to just get high,
And watch the life drain from somebody's eyes.
These days I try to keep it down,
But, Oh, those fucking urges come around.
I drop my walls and lose control,
And kill, like I have never killed before.
Each time more blood and much more pain,
It seems in vain I have this Hate contained.
So here I write my last request,
That I may finally be granted rest.
I ask only that I be burned,
And to the Earth my ashes be returned.
For now the beast in me is still,
So there's just one last victim left to kill.
I just want you to know I tried,
But couldn't change what I became inside.
So now I say to you, at last,
I'm tired...and The Sleep is coming fast.
Pretty soon my veins will be drained,
And this Pain will fade to memories stained.
Tell nobody what I have done,
And don't ever speak my name.
Let me fade away No one,
And let not their Pain become my fame.
From the darkness within
It's spirit hides deep within me
i hear it's whispers from the dark
cruel emotions that rule so fiercely
the damage done has left it's mark
My fear and anger are intertwined
the beast within pulls the strings
like a puppet for the mastermind
i have little control over these things
I am the apple with a rotten core
ripe for self intimidation
my soul the battleground of an endless war
a curse of my own vivification.
It's spirit hides deep within me
i hear it's whispers from the dark
cruel emotions that rule so fiercely
the damage done has left it's mark
My fear and anger are intertwined
the beast within pulls the strings
like a puppet for the mastermind
i have little control over these things
I am the apple with a rotten core
ripe for self intimidation
my soul the battleground of an endless war
a curse of my own vivification.
Anonymous
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Blue Room Nightmare
Spinning, she falls down
Once she thought the room was black
Now she sees it's blue
It's paint, dripping, the sarcasm almost green
It's floor, curling round her toes, almost alive
Angry, the room relatiates
She should have closed those grey eyes
Now she sees it's teeth
It's jaws, opening wide to devour purity
It's hands, reaching out to grasp her peace
Running, the walls rush to meet her
Each blue wave causing her to lose a step
Now she sees it's truth
It's heart, cold as stone fire, refuses to beat
It's smile, sneering, laughs in her face
Sleeping, she wills the night to fade
Sometimes, just for a moment, it works
Now she dreams the room
It's eyes closed and unseeing, sees her fears
It's breathing, low and raspy, makes her shiver
Whispering, she murmers cries for help
If you're quiet, you'll hear her
Now she reaches for you
Tears, blue as the the walls, silently fall
They mesh with this nightmare
Now, she reaches inside
Inside there is no blue room
Inside there is no nightmare
Spinning, she falls down
Once she thought the room was black
Now she sees it's blue
It's paint, dripping, the sarcasm almost green
It's floor, curling round her toes, almost alive
Angry, the room relatiates
She should have closed those grey eyes
Now she sees it's teeth
It's jaws, opening wide to devour purity
It's hands, reaching out to grasp her peace
Running, the walls rush to meet her
Each blue wave causing her to lose a step
Now she sees it's truth
It's heart, cold as stone fire, refuses to beat
It's smile, sneering, laughs in her face
Sleeping, she wills the night to fade
Sometimes, just for a moment, it works
Now she dreams the room
It's eyes closed and unseeing, sees her fears
It's breathing, low and raspy, makes her shiver
Whispering, she murmers cries for help
If you're quiet, you'll hear her
Now she reaches for you
Tears, blue as the the walls, silently fall
They mesh with this nightmare
Now, she reaches inside
Inside there is no blue room
Inside there is no nightmare
The Voices....The Visions...The Vices
I hear them....
in the hollow of my soul
whispering to me as I sleep
The Voices... disembodied
old friends... they like
the shadows...they feed on
my past pain and anguish...
Giving me a reason...
to dwell in my alternate state
of existance... with them...
I am never alone...
They remind me...when I choose
to forget how I've been wronged
They taunt me... making
my blood boil with anticipation
of the debauchery I am so capable
of creating...at this ...I smile
Broad & wide....deep inside
How I love it when the voices come
Then The Visions...
The visions of torture I see
myself inflicting upon
my previous abusers
I imagine a warm red rain
falling as I...choose my favorite
blade....gold embossed handle
with a triple edged tip...
Oh the visions of the terror
are exquisite...a symphony
of terror...
I am practiclly orgasmic...
at the vision that unfolds before me...
As the Voices sing a catchy melody...
it all most sounds like
Ring around the rosey....
And...
All this hidden...
inside my Vice for Leather
and Whipps...and spiked chains...
Hidden inside my Vice
for strong liquor ...and
weak men
Hidden inside...deep inside
I hear the voices...
I see the Visons...
I feed...my Vices
I hear them....
in the hollow of my soul
whispering to me as I sleep
The Voices... disembodied
old friends... they like
the shadows...they feed on
my past pain and anguish...
Giving me a reason...
to dwell in my alternate state
of existance... with them...
I am never alone...
They remind me...when I choose
to forget how I've been wronged
They taunt me... making
my blood boil with anticipation
of the debauchery I am so capable
of creating...at this ...I smile
Broad & wide....deep inside
How I love it when the voices come
Then The Visions...
The visions of torture I see
myself inflicting upon
my previous abusers
I imagine a warm red rain
falling as I...choose my favorite
blade....gold embossed handle
with a triple edged tip...
Oh the visions of the terror
are exquisite...a symphony
of terror...
I am practiclly orgasmic...
at the vision that unfolds before me...
As the Voices sing a catchy melody...
it all most sounds like
Ring around the rosey....
And...
All this hidden...
inside my Vice for Leather
and Whipps...and spiked chains...
Hidden inside my Vice
for strong liquor ...and
weak men
Hidden inside...deep inside
I hear the voices...
I see the Visons...
I feed...my Vices
Anonymous
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