Suicide Notes
sadgurl
Forum Posts: 52
Twisted Dreamer
1
Joined 26th July 2012Forum Posts: 52
Poetry Contest Description
Write it as if you are Writing the suicide note....
FishCake
Forum Posts: 344
Thought Provoker
8
Joined 10th May 2012Forum Posts: 344
I want to love
I want to hold you
I truly do
You are my everything
It is that fact that your near
that keeps away this ugly tear
Its all you
Your, love me too
Your, I truly do
You said so many things
Like that all you said was true
But how can I believe those lies too?
When you speak
A little piece of me dies
With every twist of your lies
You are the cause
Of all these tears
And all of my fears
I continue to think
How can I trust
When my hearts going to bust
And every night
I wish I was never born
Then I'd never be so torn
Its all the fault of this fate
Thats full of awful twists
That cause the cuts on my wrists
This is surely hell already
Because every where i look i see your face
Hell is most definatly this place
I cant handle all of this
I have made so many spills
By the way the drain is clogged with pills
This is my life
A broken vase
Cant stand the chase
I am tired
Of the falling tears
The increasing fears
I know I'm almost gone
With every lie
I know I'm going to die
This is what it takes
To achieve my goal
To get rid of this soul
Maybe its all to late
The thing I was using to kill
Was that deadly pill
Why cant I be
One of the dead
Thats the path I have lead
If only I could
Just drop
And go plop
Maybe that would end
I'm tired of buffering
I need to end this suffering
The question keeps coming
Why was I born?
That is the thought like thorn
Why cant I escape
I want no delays
Destroy the rainbow of greys
Why god? Why?
I know Im not clever
So why wont you let me sleep forever?
It is I
That I want to use as the sacrafice
I know this is the price
This Life
Is like a spinning top
MAKE IT STOP!
I cant get what I want
This life I never bought
I will end it with a shot
To me
I wish nothing more
to be in the morge
Why?
Why cant I be dead
With the lies I have been feed
There is
Such a high sky
That after this I will fly
I try to ignore it
But I know what you think
But I dont care, I'm at my brink
Do you know what this is?
This is the world I hate
This is worst than hell's gate
This is the end
This is the final kill
Ended with a pill
This is the final
Its been such a long while
Since I had such a pure smile
One last word
I did try
I didnt just cry
But my efforts were futile
I never stood a chance
In this world's evil dance
This world is more than you think
It is far more cruel
It has you spun on a spool
Say good bye for me
Maybe someone will finaly see
Not just what I couldnt be
This is the thing
That when I sink this will float
This is my Sucide Note
I want to hold you
I truly do
You are my everything
It is that fact that your near
that keeps away this ugly tear
Its all you
Your, love me too
Your, I truly do
You said so many things
Like that all you said was true
But how can I believe those lies too?
When you speak
A little piece of me dies
With every twist of your lies
You are the cause
Of all these tears
And all of my fears
I continue to think
How can I trust
When my hearts going to bust
And every night
I wish I was never born
Then I'd never be so torn
Its all the fault of this fate
Thats full of awful twists
That cause the cuts on my wrists
This is surely hell already
Because every where i look i see your face
Hell is most definatly this place
I cant handle all of this
I have made so many spills
By the way the drain is clogged with pills
This is my life
A broken vase
Cant stand the chase
I am tired
Of the falling tears
The increasing fears
I know I'm almost gone
With every lie
I know I'm going to die
This is what it takes
To achieve my goal
To get rid of this soul
Maybe its all to late
The thing I was using to kill
Was that deadly pill
Why cant I be
One of the dead
Thats the path I have lead
If only I could
Just drop
And go plop
Maybe that would end
I'm tired of buffering
I need to end this suffering
The question keeps coming
Why was I born?
That is the thought like thorn
Why cant I escape
I want no delays
Destroy the rainbow of greys
Why god? Why?
I know Im not clever
So why wont you let me sleep forever?
It is I
That I want to use as the sacrafice
I know this is the price
This Life
Is like a spinning top
MAKE IT STOP!
I cant get what I want
This life I never bought
I will end it with a shot
To me
I wish nothing more
to be in the morge
Why?
Why cant I be dead
With the lies I have been feed
There is
Such a high sky
That after this I will fly
I try to ignore it
But I know what you think
But I dont care, I'm at my brink
Do you know what this is?
This is the world I hate
This is worst than hell's gate
This is the end
This is the final kill
Ended with a pill
This is the final
Its been such a long while
Since I had such a pure smile
One last word
I did try
I didnt just cry
But my efforts were futile
I never stood a chance
In this world's evil dance
This world is more than you think
It is far more cruel
It has you spun on a spool
Say good bye for me
Maybe someone will finaly see
Not just what I couldnt be
This is the thing
That when I sink this will float
This is my Sucide Note
Anonymous
The Script
It's all about me
And only me
I couldn't give a fuck
For the aftermath to come
I'm just some well lived middle classed cunt
Covered in materialistic shit
To express my "individuality"
Woe is me, i've hit fourteen
Dye my hair black
Purposely push others away
I want to die
Because..
i'm a conceited pampered little shit
My life is so hard..
With all this wealth
And an oh-so "broken" heart
I'm such a fucking poet
I'm so god damn unique
I think i'm fucking special
Basking in my own conceit.
I haven't even considered
How i'm supposed to take my own life
I've been too busy
Working on this fucking suicide note.
Haven't even strung the noose
Or let the bath start running
Haven't even begun
Something i'll never fucking do.
I won't take my own life
Like fuck, i'm a pussy.
Never even got in a fight
Haven't even spoken up
I've just taken the shit
Like some street hooker.
Waiting for mommy and daddy
To arrive just on time
I've got a fucking script
And they've got their part
As I loosly tie my belt
Around my neck
I don't even string myself up
Just softly and surely strangle myself
Until i'm a little red
Just as they walk through the door
I play dead.
I know i'm full of shit
I'm sure you do too.
Because i'm just some little fuck
Espousing lies for attention
It's all about me
And only me
I couldn't give a fuck
For the aftermath to come
I'm just some well lived middle classed cunt
Covered in materialistic shit
To express my "individuality"
Woe is me, i've hit fourteen
Dye my hair black
Purposely push others away
I want to die
Because..
i'm a conceited pampered little shit
My life is so hard..
With all this wealth
And an oh-so "broken" heart
I'm such a fucking poet
I'm so god damn unique
I think i'm fucking special
Basking in my own conceit.
I haven't even considered
How i'm supposed to take my own life
I've been too busy
Working on this fucking suicide note.
Haven't even strung the noose
Or let the bath start running
Haven't even begun
Something i'll never fucking do.
I won't take my own life
Like fuck, i'm a pussy.
Never even got in a fight
Haven't even spoken up
I've just taken the shit
Like some street hooker.
Waiting for mommy and daddy
To arrive just on time
I've got a fucking script
And they've got their part
As I loosly tie my belt
Around my neck
I don't even string myself up
Just softly and surely strangle myself
Until i'm a little red
Just as they walk through the door
I play dead.
I know i'm full of shit
I'm sure you do too.
Because i'm just some little fuck
Espousing lies for attention
darken_hearts
venom love
Joined 18th Feb 2011
Forum Posts: 60
venom love
Thought Provoker
Forum Posts: 60
Why I left is no question
I didn't want to be here any more
Yes I was loved and lost and loved again
I was adored for my work and my kind heart
I was adored for the things I lead you to believe
But I was truly never understood
My mind was far more open than you thought
Sex blood torture and murder
Ran most of my thoughts
And I know none of them would understand
Which Is part of the reason I left
I grew lonely as a mind of one and one only never really finding the true match
I grew cold from the fake smiles and the fake laughs
I drifted from the happy little girl I was
To this flawed monsterious who inflated girl who doesn't even know who she is
I left because I wasn't really a fit for this body
I wasn't a fit for this society
I wasn't fit for any of you
I didn't want to be here any more
Yes I was loved and lost and loved again
I was adored for my work and my kind heart
I was adored for the things I lead you to believe
But I was truly never understood
My mind was far more open than you thought
Sex blood torture and murder
Ran most of my thoughts
And I know none of them would understand
Which Is part of the reason I left
I grew lonely as a mind of one and one only never really finding the true match
I grew cold from the fake smiles and the fake laughs
I drifted from the happy little girl I was
To this flawed monsterious who inflated girl who doesn't even know who she is
I left because I wasn't really a fit for this body
I wasn't a fit for this society
I wasn't fit for any of you
emoadi
Forum Posts: 33
Lost Thinker
3
Joined 4th July 2012Forum Posts: 33
The Hang Of Life
I'm looking around
and I'm trying to find a way.
Just what it is like
I don't know what to say.
As all the people
go through their lives
I'm just looking for something,
Anything,
To get a hold of.
And I never got the hang of life.
I never really got to know what it's all about.
Just learning to sing and shout
and watch the people as they go by their business.
Don't know what to say.
Don't know what to do.
And I tried my best
to make my way.
And I tried my best
to make my way.
I'm looking around
and I'm trying to find a way.
Just what it is like
I don't know what to say.
As all the people
go through their lives
I'm just looking for something,
Anything,
To get a hold of.
And I never got the hang of life.
I never really got to know what it's all about.
Just learning to sing and shout
and watch the people as they go by their business.
Don't know what to say.
Don't know what to do.
And I tried my best
to make my way.
And I tried my best
to make my way.
BleedingInferno219
Kristyn Ashley.
Forum Posts: 717
Kristyn Ashley.
Fire of Insight
12
Joined 3rd Apr 2011Forum Posts: 717
I'm not sure if this is a valid submission..
The Irony in Finishing What You Ended Anyway.
“I used to be dark, if you’d met me, you’d know.
It was no act, but reality. You all watched the show.
Pills filled my room, blades smelling like rust, with the essence of smoke.
Bloody kisses on my arm, and you sat around, ‘cause you thought itwas a joke.
I had dreamed that you’d help, or perhaps even notice, I was losingmy fight.
Well, it seems I lost. Because I hit the bottom, in my pointless life.
Here’s all that’s left, just my bloody note.”
The mother read aloud, "That's all she wrote."
The Irony in Finishing What You Ended Anyway.
“I used to be dark, if you’d met me, you’d know.
It was no act, but reality. You all watched the show.
Pills filled my room, blades smelling like rust, with the essence of smoke.
Bloody kisses on my arm, and you sat around, ‘cause you thought itwas a joke.
I had dreamed that you’d help, or perhaps even notice, I was losingmy fight.
Well, it seems I lost. Because I hit the bottom, in my pointless life.
Here’s all that’s left, just my bloody note.”
The mother read aloud, "That's all she wrote."
NoMoreLove
Golden Bird
Joined 6th Nov 2012
Forum Posts: 119
Golden Bird
Twisted Dreamer
Forum Posts: 119
Love is easier said than done,
Hate has clouded out my sun,
I can't seem to find myself,
I'm lost and I'm alone,
There's no love,
For a one like my own.
Darkness blinds my eyes,
Happiness shies away from me,
I've tried to win this fight,
But words aren't strong enough,
So here's the note for a suffice,
Loveless knife, my suicide.
Hate has clouded out my sun,
I can't seem to find myself,
I'm lost and I'm alone,
There's no love,
For a one like my own.
Darkness blinds my eyes,
Happiness shies away from me,
I've tried to win this fight,
But words aren't strong enough,
So here's the note for a suffice,
Loveless knife, my suicide.
13
Forum Posts: 679
Dangerous Mind
17
Joined 25th June 2011 Forum Posts: 679
13
Darken this verse,
with sour intentions.
I can’t crave
this, your imperfection.
And like ticks,
you’ll feed relentless,
not ever absolute.
Such weak examples,
disgraceful role models.
Decrepit, this soul
can find it.
The only truth.
I will die.
Darken this verse,
with sour intentions.
I can’t crave
this, your imperfection.
And like ticks,
you’ll feed relentless,
not ever absolute.
Such weak examples,
disgraceful role models.
Decrepit, this soul
can find it.
The only truth.
I will die.
violet
Vi
Forum Posts: 2523
Vi
Dangerous Mind
6
Joined 13th Feb 2011 Forum Posts: 2523
A Lengthy rest.
It's strenuous
trying to force my way
out of bed
Dragging myself, feet first
almost breaking bones
to make the rest of me follow
It's too tiring
Exhaustion caused
Not from a busy night's work
or an evening spent drinking
myself into a crippling stupor
or from fucking
till the crack of dawn
but because of the weight that sneaks into my bed
in the first light, not seconds after i open my eyes
pinning me down till i am made to remember the things
i had managed to forget during sleep
The heaviness that takes a seat on my torso
every damn morning just to make it hard for me
to suck in enough of the air that would give me
the energy to move
It's too much
I am considering the idea of a lengthier sleep
because quite honestly
I could do with a rest
It's strenuous
trying to force my way
out of bed
Dragging myself, feet first
almost breaking bones
to make the rest of me follow
It's too tiring
Exhaustion caused
Not from a busy night's work
or an evening spent drinking
myself into a crippling stupor
or from fucking
till the crack of dawn
but because of the weight that sneaks into my bed
in the first light, not seconds after i open my eyes
pinning me down till i am made to remember the things
i had managed to forget during sleep
The heaviness that takes a seat on my torso
every damn morning just to make it hard for me
to suck in enough of the air that would give me
the energy to move
It's too much
I am considering the idea of a lengthier sleep
because quite honestly
I could do with a rest
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Forum Posts: 93
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Twisted Dreamer
2
Joined 23rd Sep 2012Forum Posts: 93
See you in hell fuckwits
@Violet: hellyes.
@Necro: i guess all the mirrors in your house broke :)
@Violet: hellyes.
@Necro: i guess all the mirrors in your house broke :)
Devilish
Forum Posts: 1744
Dangerous Mind
15
Joined 24th July 2011 Forum Posts: 1744
Make sure to
finger bang my
brain matter
after
I blow them
all over the walls.
i'd appreciate a
good fuck as well..
then
throw me
to the hungry dogs
so they
can get a taste
of evil...
finger bang my
brain matter
after
I blow them
all over the walls.
i'd appreciate a
good fuck as well..
then
throw me
to the hungry dogs
so they
can get a taste
of evil...
fosterdad
Joined 24th Oct 2012
Forum Posts: 14
Lost Thinker
Forum Posts: 14
This is a temporary solution
To a permanent problem
Donate my body to science
Or wild animals
To a permanent problem
Donate my body to science
Or wild animals
PigRabbitII
Forum Posts: 39
Lost Thinker
1
Joined 4th Dec 2012 Forum Posts: 39
Sorry
Sorry you had to find me like this...
I just could no longer take the pain I was going through...
My words are coming slowly, as if my body is biding for time...
But my mind is made up already.
Tell my friends that I'm sorry; I meant to message them, but it's too late now.
Mom, Dad, please forget that I was ever born.
I wasn't worthy to be loved by you anyway.
So thank you for giving me a painless way out.
Although these pills couldn't win against my suffering,
They came in handy in this way.
Sorry you had to find me like this...
I just could no longer take the pain I was going through...
My words are coming slowly, as if my body is biding for time...
But my mind is made up already.
Tell my friends that I'm sorry; I meant to message them, but it's too late now.
Mom, Dad, please forget that I was ever born.
I wasn't worthy to be loved by you anyway.
So thank you for giving me a painless way out.
Although these pills couldn't win against my suffering,
They came in handy in this way.
twistedgirl
No Thanks
Forum Posts: 199
No Thanks
Thought Provoker
1
Joined 17th Nov 2012Forum Posts: 199
skys falling.
birds calling.
grim is near.
music in my ear.
distance tells
winter smells
so sweet
find a river
bond my hands
bloody myself
& lay me down.
if you see
don't make sounds
do not lift me
off icy grounds.
let me die please
all i ask is for you
to sing to me.
its the least you
could do.
suns falling
crickets calling
childrens screams
fill my ear
as my last sunset
dissappears.
birds calling.
grim is near.
music in my ear.
distance tells
winter smells
so sweet
find a river
bond my hands
bloody myself
& lay me down.
if you see
don't make sounds
do not lift me
off icy grounds.
let me die please
all i ask is for you
to sing to me.
its the least you
could do.
suns falling
crickets calling
childrens screams
fill my ear
as my last sunset
dissappears.
Shailendra
Shail
Joined 22nd Dec 2011
Forum Posts: 8
Shail
Lost Thinker
Forum Posts: 8
When alive, a corpse,in death now I shall live,
The only few things I wanted,that life could never give,
Gave everything else,gracious that it was,
To me an anathema,at best a lost cause...
Parody,travesty and derision of what I desired,
Of the opposite banter,I had indeed grown tired,
So away from sorrow,misfortune and the affront I received,
I embraced death for being perpetually well deceived...