Unappreciated

Hungry i was when i met him


hungry i was when i met him
and hungry i always will stay
if the love that i have for my man
is ignored in a constant way


there's no joy left inside of me
my good years are wasting away
young i was when i met him
i'm just getting starved out with age

Inside I hide, hoping to fade away,
Blend in with the skies, and hope
at some point you will APPRECIATE..

Appreciate the ones you love,
Keep an eye on the ones you hate.
Clearly making it known before I begin to feel
UNAPPPRECIATE.....wait wait wait...

These headaches, long nites, always needing to cry....
Are only physical ways to express exactly how I feel inside.

You left me... you lied....I somehow thought you were dead...
Now you're back and nothings changed
so I feel really UNAPPRECIATED!!!

I actually took you back, I cook, I clean and sex you from time to time.
Giving the kind of love a woman will give only "IF ITS MINE"....

Never again will I give so much of myself and now feel I regret it,
But somehow I can feel in-love, confused, and STILL UNAPPRECIATED!

You don't appreciate me,
For who I am,
So I try to fade away,
Become the mask,
And leave behind,
The original skeleton,
Dreams, although, will never be reached,
When I dance like a fool,
Wearing my mask and a sparkling dress,
What is beneath?
You'll never guess.

I feel so unappreciated for who I am,
So I play the game,
Everyone elses way,
That way I won't be cast away,
Just because I'm different,
I'll stay this puppy,
The follower of the pack,
Forget my own path,
I might as well be appreciated,
For my lies.

The Bitter End

If I was transparent the world could see
The little girl and the lion in me
Sometimes I wonder can god tell us apart
Does he see the anger that blankets my heart?

The light in me has slowly faded
The price you pay when all love is jaded
I am not at fault, my hands are clean
Yet damage surrounds me and more is forseen

Crumbling under the weight of this head
Starting to think my angels are dead
The footprints of others all over my skin
My love not returned and tossed in the bin

Boiling point and I don't even care
I now look at life with a cold hard stare
Blood of my blood denying the shame
Nobody's child with a borrowed name

The edge creeping closer with every breath
Is it truth that sets you free or is it really death?
Buried inside this version of me
Loosing my grip on reality

Close to explosion, I am about to blow
The rage inside leaking with a constant flow
If I could just hold on until I go insane
Set my mind free, make a stranger of pain

I don't think I can contain this blast
Send my soul salvation and blank out the past
So sick and tired of this ageing struggle
When I close my eyes I see the piles of rubble

I fight back, get up, try and try some more
It's always the same I land face on the floor
When You scream out as I have done
Take a good look at what I have become

As you beg for mercy with a desperate face
Watch me walk away while you drown in disgrace
It won't be long now until the bitter end
The moment has passed to slow my descend

Why could nobody see what I was worth?
Faintly beating heart abandoned at birth
Now justice is just an empty word
I could have been saved if my cries had been heard.

invisible to those around
no matter how i stand my ground
just call me nobody
rip the beating heart from my chest
haunt you for a lifetime with no rest
just call me nobody
take care of you for the rest of your life
be your rock in times of strife
just call me nobody
no matter what i do
no matter how i weep
nobody is all i'll ever be
say goodbye to nobody

When i scream nobody hears me
When im here they do not see
When i cry nobody comforts
when i laugh there is no cheer

All i know is pain and hardship
Things get worse year on year
I work hard to keep them happy
Yet still they treat me like im not here.

I settle closing my eyes
Go to the edge of the earth and I dive
I don’t descend quickly like I intend to
I’m suspended in air with no flight
My body is immobile yet my mind is frantic with expectation
I ask myself  am I still alive ?
For this is what I fear
Surrounded by clouds that trap me
I don’t want to shelter my fall
I need to feel what is real
My fingers intertwine with the atmosphere
For moments that seem to  pass by
I observe the radiance of the sky
The place where the stars live and the sun dies
But nothing can deplete this despondency
My nucleus is torn open with little shreds of glass
I ask for this to be over at last

The squaller that this life has thrown upon me.
Making me so repulsive by the general view.

I try and crawl free from my labeled captivity.
Though time has long run short and my days are few.

Lonely nights haunt me like an unending torment.
Falling through the antidotes of the masses unending
scrutiny.  I try to ignore this reality so hellbent.
Though my social place within this World has no immunity.    

I stare directly into nonexistence.
My talented subsistence only exists
in a never ending vortex from which it cannot escape.

Forever being the one without understanding.
Forever feeling alone and elapsed from society.
All I ever desired is attention, aptitude but above all,
to be noticed.

~Broken and Alone~
Broken and alone,
Nothing I can do to save myself.
Falling in the darkness,
Sleeping for eternity.
Theres no knight in shining armor,
No Prince Charming to wake me from this nightmare.
I'm so lost and confused...
Someone save me
[yes, I realize I may have made a couple of mistakes, but this is from my original]  

I’ve sung
and preached
then wailed
to a choir so cryptic,
that for it to ever be heard
would be as if all humanity
denied the existence
of death itself.


Futile is
a dragged out
inner love song
forecasting no further truth
for even its softest note
fails to justly
surpass the lips.

Its purpose
is no real fluid
or concrete mission
except in creating
a trapped fury so ignored
one must aggressively forget
all in the hopes of never
reliving it
fully
so feverishly
again.

S.A.

i would write about love

sacrifice
adoration
devotion

all for You

but You wouldn't read it

LobodeSanPedro said:i would write about love

sacrifice
adoration
devotion

all for You

but You wouldn't read it

well written!