saddest poem
Shattered
do you see my tears
take a moment and look beyond
do you feel what is in my heart
can you possibly come close
to know the real me
I show many things of me
yet you are still so far away
my heart is like a window
it starts out clear to look thru
due to time it has fogged up
moisture has seeped thru the cracks
it is now blurry to see thru
you can try to open it
but it's locked and sealed
time has passed by me
there are now broken pieces
just reach on thru it
still won't open though
the lock is rusty
and the frame is warped
I don't give up easily
do think the time has come
to pack up this heart of mine
pick up the shattered pieces
go see what tommorrow brings
do you see my tears
take a moment and look beyond
do you feel what is in my heart
can you possibly come close
to know the real me
I show many things of me
yet you are still so far away
my heart is like a window
it starts out clear to look thru
due to time it has fogged up
moisture has seeped thru the cracks
it is now blurry to see thru
you can try to open it
but it's locked and sealed
time has passed by me
there are now broken pieces
just reach on thru it
still won't open though
the lock is rusty
and the frame is warped
I don't give up easily
do think the time has come
to pack up this heart of mine
pick up the shattered pieces
go see what tommorrow brings
Anonymous
Very good entries, I had a comment here-mis-placed and removed it-lol-sorry :-0
Anonymous
LIVING WITHOUT A SUPPORT SYSTEM
I am a stranger, in a strange land
No friends, no family, to stand by me
My fate, each day, rests in G-D's hand
I hope He is watching over me
When you have a family, do not take it for granted
Friends will come, friends will go, some will die
Where are the neighborhoods of my youth
We knew who everybody was
Now we do not know who lives next door
All I know about some neighbors
Is when I google about them
As for family, in another country
Other people classify me by race and religion, ethnicity
They are wrong, for I am not this by choice
Neither did I choose to be so alone, so far away
To the home and land that once was mine
I feel like I want to die, but not commit suicide
For suicide can be botched up so bad
Your life will be one hundred times more miserable
With both physical and psychological pain
How did our country come to this?
The total disintegration of community
Where once we took care of our own
Now we care for no-one but ourselves
You may read this and say it is not true for you
You live in harmony with good neighbors, family
But for all the others who can identify
We have to change our society
No heroics necessary, small steps are fine
Even a small hand outstretched with mine
May save me from the despairing area
That we call North America.
Look At Me
Can you look at me without shuddering?
all I want is a little understanding
If you could how much I'm hurting would you take my hand,
or leave me to drown out in the rain?
Oh, this cold world, calls me a monster
the product of an endless, hopeless fight
but am I, really that bad?
Look at me... how could you love this?
Look at these eyes stained with tears
this heart carrying the pain of a thousand fears
Notice these hands holding up the world
while my strength is giving out underneath
Laugh at my wounds as they bleed
how could this ever be beautiful?
Look at me... if you dare...
Can you speak to me like I'm a human too?
all I want is to be loved by you
If you could feel just how I'm burdened would you help me out,
or throw me shivering in the cold?
Oh, this cold world, calls me a monster
the product of an endless, hopeless fight
but am I, really that bad?
Look at me... how could you love this?
Look at these eyes stained with tears
this heart carrying the pain of a thousand fears
Notice these hands holding up the world
while my strength is giving out underneath
Laugh at my wounds as they bleed
how could this ever be beautiful?
Look at me... if you dare...
Is this what you were expecting behind the mask?
I hope it's not too terrifying
Once there was beauty and innocence that lasts
if you could only find it...
behind the scars that make you turn your face
look at me... do you see what's underneath?
Can you look at me without shuddering?
all I want is a little understanding
If you could how much I'm hurting would you take my hand,
or leave me to drown out in the rain?
Oh, this cold world, calls me a monster
the product of an endless, hopeless fight
but am I, really that bad?
Look at me... how could you love this?
Look at these eyes stained with tears
this heart carrying the pain of a thousand fears
Notice these hands holding up the world
while my strength is giving out underneath
Laugh at my wounds as they bleed
how could this ever be beautiful?
Look at me... if you dare...
Can you speak to me like I'm a human too?
all I want is to be loved by you
If you could feel just how I'm burdened would you help me out,
or throw me shivering in the cold?
Oh, this cold world, calls me a monster
the product of an endless, hopeless fight
but am I, really that bad?
Look at me... how could you love this?
Look at these eyes stained with tears
this heart carrying the pain of a thousand fears
Notice these hands holding up the world
while my strength is giving out underneath
Laugh at my wounds as they bleed
how could this ever be beautiful?
Look at me... if you dare...
Is this what you were expecting behind the mask?
I hope it's not too terrifying
Once there was beauty and innocence that lasts
if you could only find it...
behind the scars that make you turn your face
look at me... do you see what's underneath?
Anonymous
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Theres some things i hide
Some things i keep locked up
They try to escape
But they cant
Some things can not be revealed
My stories
Most people cant handle
They are deep and dark
I dont want people to feel bad for me
So i keep things hidden away
What people see is an act
Im just a shy depressed emo girl
Not a girl you see
My stories may be deep and dark
But i am deeper and darker then my stories
Ive been through alot more then people think
I dont like talking
i feel weird when i talk
I dont know why
Ive been through alot of things
I hope no one ever has to go through
I think about them all the time
Thought after thought
Memory after memory
They want to escape
But I cant let them
Because they are my secrets
And these secrets can NOT be shared
Because they are my
Deep Dark Secrets
Some things i keep locked up
They try to escape
But they cant
Some things can not be revealed
My stories
Most people cant handle
They are deep and dark
I dont want people to feel bad for me
So i keep things hidden away
What people see is an act
Im just a shy depressed emo girl
Not a girl you see
My stories may be deep and dark
But i am deeper and darker then my stories
Ive been through alot more then people think
I dont like talking
i feel weird when i talk
I dont know why
Ive been through alot of things
I hope no one ever has to go through
I think about them all the time
Thought after thought
Memory after memory
They want to escape
But I cant let them
Because they are my secrets
And these secrets can NOT be shared
Because they are my
Deep Dark Secrets
my secret...
i was blessed
so exquisitely,
to an angel
i gave birth
she was my miracle
i was told i could
never have one
two years later
my spouse was away
i was late for many
weeks time
so excited was i
to tell him we would
not only be blessed with one
we would now have two
just days before
he was expected home
my daughter and i
were resting alone
when i found myself
doubled over in pain
i prayed so hard
but my words were in vain
for hours i struggled
alone to hold on
but there was nothing for it
nothing could be done
our baby was gone
i had lost his only son
i was blessed
so exquisitely,
to an angel
i gave birth
she was my miracle
i was told i could
never have one
two years later
my spouse was away
i was late for many
weeks time
so excited was i
to tell him we would
not only be blessed with one
we would now have two
just days before
he was expected home
my daughter and i
were resting alone
when i found myself
doubled over in pain
i prayed so hard
but my words were in vain
for hours i struggled
alone to hold on
but there was nothing for it
nothing could be done
our baby was gone
i had lost his only son
And He Says
sharing a cigarette
watching the glow
of oncoming dawn
I lean on his shoulder
and he says
I have a journey to make
I have a decision to take
the road will be long
I hold on to his warmth
shivering in nonexistent cold
blood draining into my heart
it is coming
and he says
goodbye my love goodbye
I will be back soon
before you feel my absence
I turn away
as he drives away
he is on his journey
and I know its the end
in my heart
the hollow echoes of his words
rebound, he says
goodbye goodbye goodbye.
sharing a cigarette
watching the glow
of oncoming dawn
I lean on his shoulder
and he says
I have a journey to make
I have a decision to take
the road will be long
I hold on to his warmth
shivering in nonexistent cold
blood draining into my heart
it is coming
and he says
goodbye my love goodbye
I will be back soon
before you feel my absence
I turn away
as he drives away
he is on his journey
and I know its the end
in my heart
the hollow echoes of his words
rebound, he says
goodbye goodbye goodbye.
I don’t know whats wrong today.
Can I stop?
What is this shadow I see?
Can I stop?
I feel it staring at me.
Can I stop?
Don’t you see the eyes?
Don’t you hear his evil lies?
Can I stop?
I don’t remember holding the gun,
But he told me a game both gruesome and fun.
Can I stop?
The teeth hissed out a cruel truth.
My friend told me to end this youth.
Can I stop?
Can’t you feel his claws on your skin?
He’s dug them so far in me, they’re closer than kin.
Can I stop?
His fog-like existence draping my hand like a glove.
His abusive orders to end this life that I love.
I can’t stop!
You didn’t see the demons inside of me!
You didn’t hear the madness get set free!
I CAN”T STOP!
I tried to stop bullets goals!
I CAN’T STOP!
I tried before he broke my soul!
I CAN’T STOP!
I then remembered what made me crack!
I CAN’T STOP!
I then remembered hope.
Then he pulled the trigger back.
…
I didn’t fade away.
I bolted out with no chance to stay.
Broken, shadowed, and lost,
I wanted a truth and forgot the cost.
I wanted thoughts I could feel.
They were devils made real.
It makes me wish I’d stop.
Nothing Left
She was sent to punish me
She did her job quite well
She had no other motivation
As far as I can tell
She was sent to maim me
The scars she left run deep
Though she gave me fleeting joys
That I could never keep
She brought me swift destruction
Calamity and woe
And such bittersweet memories
I never could let go
She left me there to suffer
A slow and painful death
As sorrow ate away at me
Till there was nothing left
She was sent to punish me
She did her job quite well
She had no other motivation
As far as I can tell
She was sent to maim me
The scars she left run deep
Though she gave me fleeting joys
That I could never keep
She brought me swift destruction
Calamity and woe
And such bittersweet memories
I never could let go
She left me there to suffer
A slow and painful death
As sorrow ate away at me
Till there was nothing left
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U
I wanted you
I took you
I used you
Then I spurned you
Now I need you
I miss you
Cause I love you
"Oh baby, please come back to me!"
U
I wanted you
I took you
I used you
Then I spurned you
Now I need you
I miss you
Cause I love you
"Oh baby, please come back to me!"
"The Wind During the Winter"
The sky bled the night you went away
All the love I held for you had dissipated
just before I realized
I forgot why I fell in love with you.
slipping my mind, like a balloon string out of a hand.
but it's not like you can mend things anyways.
you died during a beautiful spring morning.
I loved the way you smiled before the frown I knew would come didn't.
You proved me wrong, and left anyways.
The sky bled the night you went away.
The sky bled the night you went away
All the love I held for you had dissipated
just before I realized
I forgot why I fell in love with you.
slipping my mind, like a balloon string out of a hand.
but it's not like you can mend things anyways.
you died during a beautiful spring morning.
I loved the way you smiled before the frown I knew would come didn't.
You proved me wrong, and left anyways.
The sky bled the night you went away.
Sadly Sedated
Filling his head with doubts
smoke filling up his lungs
scratching his head
he thought about his grocery list
a whole length of needful things
listed in a piece of paper
he couldn't buy them
he lost his money
did he drink his market money
or gave it to the tired whore
who might have serviced Elvis
or even John Wayne
He spat at the ground
he hated himself for his weakness
wine woman and poker
he hated to go home
his babies crying for milk
and his woman have lost
all her loving for him
shit! He needed another drink.
Filling his head with doubts
smoke filling up his lungs
scratching his head
he thought about his grocery list
a whole length of needful things
listed in a piece of paper
he couldn't buy them
he lost his money
did he drink his market money
or gave it to the tired whore
who might have serviced Elvis
or even John Wayne
He spat at the ground
he hated himself for his weakness
wine woman and poker
he hated to go home
his babies crying for milk
and his woman have lost
all her loving for him
shit! He needed another drink.
I had a lover who had a puppy
a breed she had always wanted
of beautiful coat and playful mind
So much was it's energy and lust for life
It destroyed all it saw when left unattended
and even was guilty when asked of the chaos
like saying to her "then don't leave me alone"
So everything was tried to reel in the carnage
to suppress all the instincts of that little pup
When nothing else worked she tried isolation
in a small bathroom there nothing to wreck
The back of the wood door saw scrapes from the nails
of the small dog just trying in vain to get out
So a leash was then used to shorten the distance
from the base of the toilet to the back of the door
Overlooked was the enthusiasm of the bounding young dog
alone and afraid in that tiny room
It jumped from the toilet seat over the sink vanity
and hung it's poor self, unfortunate doom
And that wasn't the end of this tale of woe
till the pup was discovered that day after school
by the woman's young daughter who loved that damn puppy
for fate claimed the innocence of two souls so cruel
The scene no doubt burned into her fragile mind's eye
who could predict the long term effects
That young girl now works in the veterinary sciences
Perhaps paying Karma back that long ago debt
a breed she had always wanted
of beautiful coat and playful mind
So much was it's energy and lust for life
It destroyed all it saw when left unattended
and even was guilty when asked of the chaos
like saying to her "then don't leave me alone"
So everything was tried to reel in the carnage
to suppress all the instincts of that little pup
When nothing else worked she tried isolation
in a small bathroom there nothing to wreck
The back of the wood door saw scrapes from the nails
of the small dog just trying in vain to get out
So a leash was then used to shorten the distance
from the base of the toilet to the back of the door
Overlooked was the enthusiasm of the bounding young dog
alone and afraid in that tiny room
It jumped from the toilet seat over the sink vanity
and hung it's poor self, unfortunate doom
And that wasn't the end of this tale of woe
till the pup was discovered that day after school
by the woman's young daughter who loved that damn puppy
for fate claimed the innocence of two souls so cruel
The scene no doubt burned into her fragile mind's eye
who could predict the long term effects
That young girl now works in the veterinary sciences
Perhaps paying Karma back that long ago debt
